Notes

PHYSICAL SPACE, MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL SPACE.

Nobody talks about LACK and how she infiltrates our space.

It was 4:00 a m and my eye was buried on the sides of the road as I sat at the back seat of the car
the tears won’t stop coming, the questions won’t go away and the driver was approaching home where I had to pretend to be normal and strong when I was really drained beyond exhaustion.
The year may have started out good but I was still outta place with attaining my own space; a place to create a personal atmosphere and express that which I learned freely ,to be me without a question. But It was good at the time because my ex was accommodating.
it started out amazing and was close to perfection until late February; what used to feel like peace became a war front
I was in a space of old good and bad new memories of the one I loved , an atmosphere blessed with tantrums encouraged by the one I loved, the bad energy made a drain of me but if you ask me , I would say I was torn between spaces and the big question to me remained?
What would you rather protect ? Your physical space that’s not your personal space or your emotional and mental space ?
My answer had taken me back home , I could say space thought me to make bold decisions
three months since I’d left my bad space I realized how many souls LACK had graved , I recognized the ego it’s needs and souls neatly buried underneath and I thought
Maybe if you Treat your body more Like a space it would function more like a better person than when you treat it as a person
the thoughts lingered

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And there, I reckoned with my lacks, started to clean up me own grave, cleaned up everything bad for my mental and emotional space; the gateway to my internal world.
I shoved my ego aside , no matter how much my ego loved it , I let go
Detached myself from me mind , it was hard to say no to her when she adored it , but I let go
My eye begged me,but I denied her of her desires and left her closed to everything I didn’t need in my space
No doubt it was difficult but the peace I felt afterward I have no better words to describe, but the pulchritude of it defeated my war.
It’s been five months since I left my ex
It’s 07 25 2021
And my eyes burned, each with a different emotion
My heart produced drum beats that deformed my face with beauty
I was walking in my room it was beautiful just the way I thought it
I was in my all three spaces
My physical space
My emotional space
And my mental space
I needed two to find one
I did let go of everything, and now everything is mine .
Space was all I gave my mind to evolve and let go and embrace growth!.