Notes

Lately it feels like I've been stuck in another world and I can't tell anyone how i feel or what i want to change about the way i think and even change somethings about myself , i can't tell anyone because i'm scared of what they would think or how would they act by it. Maybe one I would be able to tell my story, more like a journey I learned about life and what comes along with it and about finding and picking the right friends and other stuff you might already know about . So, why should even waste my time typing it , it doesn't matter, like ...me ?!
I know I change the subject way to much because I don't know how to react to the truth and I don't like to over think it because that drives me crazy, doesn't it drive everyone crazy sometimes. Who knows what goes on in everyone mind , but have you ever wonder if you could stop the voice in your head or try to act like they aren't there .... There's like these voice that never go away, they try to make you feel like shit and make everything go wrong when you're trying to make everything go great but no you can't because there's something holding you back and you want to take over but they control everything up inside your head , they make you feel like you're nothing and you don't matter and no one cares but you know people care and they are here for you but you believe that they are just lying to you and they are just saying that to make you feel better about yourself or to make them to look like a better person.
I wonder about a lot of thing but one of them is " why can't I feel better about myself and why can't I be fine"????......