Notes

dear chris.
u have NO idea how much u mean to me. if i had to put my love for u on a scale of 1-10 it would be 100. i would drop EVERYTHING to see u if i could. but i cant and i know that when we were together, it was hard to see each other. but i cant help that. i really do miss you. i wish u knew how much i miss cuddling into ur chest, saying 'i love you' to each other. u cant imagine how much i miss you. and i really need you right now and i don't feel like u trust me about stuff. u always go to Kierra. if its something about Stephanie, it might hurt me to hear but i can deal, we are best friends i don't want any secrets please. u can talk about anything with me. i don't care. i don't wanna have to hear stuff about u from other people, i want to hear it from u. i tell u everything but u tell me nothing. tell me how that works.... oh right...... it doesn't. i love u more than anything. and i promise, if u give me another chance, that i will do everything that i can, to make sure u are happy. i miss u. and i know u probably don't miss/love me :( but i cant make u miss/love me. i just want you to know that i really do care about you, more than anything in the world. and i do know EXACTLY why u were/are sad when Stephaine breaks up with u. i know how u feel. cuz YOU put me through it. (not trying to make you depressed). and u think my life is perfect? HELL NO IT AIN'T!!!!!!! almost every night i cry myself to sleep,i ide all of my emotions from people. if u haven't noticed i've been sad more often, its because the true me is showing. every night i convince myself that cutting is just gonna make my life more complicated. and people ALWAYS pick on me for liking One Direction. like whats wrong with it? just cuz they're a boy bad doesnt mean one damn thing. and if it wasn't for One Direction, i might have given up a long time ago. (more than half of One Direction fans are suicidal. and if it wasn't for One Direction, they would've killed themselves)