Notes

Jade you are my everything, When I know we are going to hang out I get soo soo exited you do not even know! Its crazy. I feel like we had to met for a reason. You make me smile so much! I've never been able to act like this around a girl. Definitely not around one I like! It makes me so happy knowing that I'm always making you happy. Its hard to believe that I can possibly make a girl this happy. And for me to be this happy around a girl. I once watched this video on this couple. It was almost like me and you! I started tearing up ); Because it was so cool! They were making videos of them kissing at the park and they were having so much fun and it just reminded me of us! Jade it hurt's me when I TELL you how beautiful and perfect you are and you just deny it :( I know you said your starting to accept it. But you need to accept the fact that your BEAUTIFUL! PERFECT! Everything. Its hard for me to accept it too. But you get called pretty and beautiful everyday don't you? Its hard for me because your the first person to really tell me. When you smile it honestly gives me goosebumps haha. It just reminds me of everything we have! I had feelings for you ever sense you asked me out! serious! I am sorry if I make you feel sad at times I understand you are very fragile. Jade you need to tell me if I'm doing something wrong! If you don't tell me I can;t fix it! I've never had such a serious relationship. I really really really DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU! I'm not saying that you or I have secrets between us right now but we cannot have any secrets between us. You wanna know why? BTW I'm talking about bad secrets we hold from each other. Okay you know when you said "When we don't see each other for a while, I kinda forget I have you as a boyfriend"? It's because I may not be treating you correct, and it gives you that feeling. If we just express our self's every time something goes wrong I promise you, you will not have that thought/feeling again. And on the bright side. If you think about it as much as you hate to, Every time we have a little argument/fight/disagreement it pulls us closer together because we both realize how stupid it is and we can't lose each other over something so stupid. it's not worth it... The whole phone thing is an example of stupid. Jade. please. I don't ever want to hear "I'm a fuck up, everything I do is wrong, I try so hard to make everyone happy and I just make my self sad" Please don't say that :( it hurts me and you both! I don't like hearing that! Okay we'll I'm done talking about that. Jade you're honestly everything I could ask for seriously! You're smile, teeth, hair, Body is just RIGHT!, EYES OMG!, I fucking love you're eyes. every time I look into them I just keep falling more and more in love with you even more! You're body is just right you have no idea! :D, You're hair OMG i love you're black hair I honesty love it! HAHA OMG everything about you is just right everything I would ask for!, You're teeth. Okay Okay you got braces! Who cares I love them! So perfect! Just makes me smile and feel so loved haha! I miss you so much. You're personality is just awesome I love it jade. The way you do things and just the way you act it's just right. I love the choice you clothes you wear, The way you dress is so cute! You're so funny! Then when you make me laugh you say how much you love my smile! HAHA it just reminds me I guess that I have a amazing life with you! And how happy I am with you! I couldn't ask for anything more! I love that you're so honest and open with me! Seriously that's all I'm asking from you. You can tell me the dumbest things and feel stupid as much as you want but like you said "You'd never judge me" I would never I am I here to not only make you feel wanted and in love but to listen to anything you have to say! Tell me anything it's whats going to pull us closer together! Tell me how much you love ice cream or tell me everything that happened at school that day! I don't think anything can break us apart! If a guy came between us... like I said last night I would be very very sad Might walk away. I would probably kill him. Don't ever think you're alone in this world jade seriously If you do I will always be here for you! So many people love you! I have never cried over a girl before. I didn't know what true love was when I told you the second day we were dating. I know what love is now and I love you jade! If I could I'm not saying its going to happen or not but I want to spend the rest of my life with you! You have no no no worries about me letting you go! I don't think about anyone well besides you! I think about you non stop 90% of my legit thoughts are about you! The other 10% is school work .etc. You're always on my mine I will never forget about you! Somethings I just ask myself "How did I nathan met such a diamond, shes like the acorn of of ice age" HAHA okay sorry I just laughed out loud. But do you know what I mean? You're so fragile and one thing I do wrong I could lose you. When people ask "who's you're girlfriend?" I am so proud to say "Jade Shaw!" I would give up ANYTHING for us! Nothing is as strong and important as our relationship. I really feel like I can talk to you now! Sex feels so good with you jade! I know how much you want to know but I can not even explain. Not because its "Sex" but it has meaning behind it. It's not meaning less, worthless, drunk, gross sex. If I had sex with you that night we met I don't think we would be talking to each other right now! I so so glad we didn't. Well I spend an hour typing this. I much as I want to keep going, I'm going to stop! If i missed anything you know what is it jade! Don't think because I didn't type it I don't think about it! I love you jade!