Notes

I don't know from where can i start this but i gonna say straight forward.
everyone has some pain, trails and tribulations in their life but someone's problem is big and someone's small . Maybe we are facing some big level problems since then! I have told you many of my problems but not all . I believe you would lost your interest totally on me after knowing them . Maybe you noticed that i always spoke about my eldest and youngest sister but never talked about my 2nd sister . Actually we have big problem with her . Approximately 10 years ago she was very much ill suddenly and that illness made her something like abnormal . I don't know that disease name but it was related to blood which effected her physical and mental health. Alhamdulillah she's getting well but yet not perfect like us .Her main problem is she loves to be alone, loves silnece and sometimes so stubborn to do what she wants. She normally does little works by herself even she come to my room to lock my Windows when it's evening .

I haven't taken any decision but just thought that i will wait to get married until my sister is not fully recovered. If she doesn't then i won't marry until she or me die! I don't wanna see that my wife will say bad things to her because of her this psychological problem. I can't make you understand how much she loved me and others when she was healthy. Please pray for her if possible.

Another thing i skip or try to skip then is that i haven't completed my study. There is a big story behind that though insha-Allah i am planning this year to do so .

I hope now you understand that why i always told you to stop dreaming about me and i hope you aren't fool like before to continue communication with me further after knowing this all. I should say you all many days ago but i didn't sorry for that .

I hope you understand me now . I'm really sorry for all things actually i find you in qualities which i look for a wife but it's a nightmare for me to get married. Sorry again..forgive me..pray for me


I hope you won't communicate with me anymore after knowing this and definitely no family or intelligent girl won't want to get married to me and i know that very well. that's why i don't show interest on girls . But somehow i got attracted to you .sorry for that.

So...it was nice meeting talking everything with you .. Forgive me and pray for me .. Assalamu'alaikum