Notes

I got a lot to say n ion know where to start,
Life takin shots at me now its holes in my heart,
How I'm pose to shine on em when my soul in the dark,
I remember sneakin snacks in the grocery cart,
But I hate them flashbacks thats what hurt me the most,
Cuz everytime I reminisce I realize somebody gone,
Somebody just died, somebody I know,
N i ain't even cry, but everyday I feel the lump in my throat,
I swear my life is up in flames,
I'm out here punchin the smoke,
They say its better ways to fight it but it's all that I know,
Just got off the phone wit pops bet ion call him no Mo,
N ima call him by his name cuz that nigga a ho,
I'm dead to u well, u dead to me to,
U said u gave bread to me I gave bread to u too,
I take responsibility but what uwant me to do,
I'm trying my best to win its like u want me to lose,
Cuz u know how I am,
This ain't the days when u was holding my hand,
Ima throw them thangs wit u ima grown ass man,
Ain't shit change over here I'll die for my pride,
Got me thinkin bout my soldiers now my eyes to the sky,
I swear to God man its hard to keep my eyes on the prize,
I just wanna pop these pills until my mind all fried,
But my brother doing a dime n if I died it'll kill em,
So me succeedin is the only way to ride for my niggas,
If ion wanna live for me I gotta live for my nieces,
Still ain't over Louie case that shit tore me to pieces,
Lookin back to grandma Emma's, its like who coulda seen it,
All the niggas I starved wit won't be there when I'm eating,
Was in the county having nightmares, I'm tryna forget it,
Every night, I was reminded of the shit I regretted,
They coulda gave me 15 for some shit that's alleged,
Come home my bitch gone not only that but she pregnant,
N i knew the shit was coming I been quit tryna fight it,
But the way it went down was too deep for my liking,
Cuz I loved her ass to death I said I ain't then I'm lyin,
Ain't no point in tryna deny that we was both tired of trying,
Everything is meant to be that's truly what I believe,
I'm just tryna do the math like wtf do it mean,
They told me to kick rocks, n now I'm scuffin my sneaks,
I done seen bad n worse now I'm stuck in between,
I really had to start from scratch so I got some thing to prove,
While I was booked they broke in n stole my hats n my shoes,
Before I went they stole my laptop wit all of my beats,
Dawg I even lost my wallet that had all of my cheese,
I done took so many Ls its no wonder I smoke,
But I'm on papers now I'm salty cuz I can't no mo,
Only one violation they can max out my time,
That's why ion post as much, this is what's on my mind,
But I ain't boutta let these phony niggas fuck up my grind,
Ima kill em for so long they say I'm stuck in my prime,
Cuz as long I remember I been stuck in my ways,
Real North side nigga eating pizza at Hayes,
Only talked to 2 ppl n now both of em gone,
So I guess it's not a question why I feel so alone,
When I really need to talk nobody pick up the phone,
As a man I understand I gotta cope on my own,
See time is the best bandage, we all done been damaged,
Steal a man food n u can die for a sandwich,
Shoulda caught a reco, running wit the bandits,
My life is full of drama ima real life hamlet,
Thumbin thru a pamphlet, I gotta get away,
No days off ion never take a break,
The reaper in my dreams n now I gotta stay awake,
Totin automatics ma I gotta play it safe,