Notes

Xander Sterrenburg, daily notes December 2016.
Note: This note should remain disclosed and shouldn't be shared by anyone.

To start, I heard that either Lonneke or one of her friends claimed that Pheedy is still sending messages, while I appreciate that I know it at all, they should not expect me to know by simply knowing, I know nothing and nobody is telling me anything, don't expect to solve anything if they don't even let me know about it.

I've returned from that awful party school had to organize for some reason or another, it really sucked because nobody I know well was present, and it was just me staying there for hours on end. Additionally, I found out that even my "best friend" doesn't care about me as much as I initially thought, as response to that, I'm altering my suicide due date from 11/1/2017 to 7/1/2017 so that nobody school related can talk me over, I will not commit suicide unless something great happens very soon, which is very unlikely to happen. In addition to this, my school started out great with my true best friend gave me a high five, but it quickly escalated to a point I am in right now, I've had to deal with situations I thought long over, but apparently it's all starting again, Janita is apparently pissed off at me for talking to her which is a bullshit reason. Not only this, but Pheedy decided to launch a very accurate DOX of me out in the public which I couldn't find, and additionally, he decided to start a very large scale DDoS attack on XDiscuss again, and apparently, Pheedy is continuing and nobody is even thinking of letting me know any of that either.

If Janita continues to attack and accuse me of these things, I may even commit suicide just before 2017. (tomorrow)

I have had to ditch Kevin as a friend because of what he did and currently I am back at stage 0 and I am really not going to do this again.

I again, have no friends apart from Chayenne who I met by, well luck? Chayenne is the only person who seems to know me better than anyone else, even better than myself sometimes and it sucks that I will likely lose contact next year.

Starting tomorrow, I will ignore everyone and everything except Chayenne who is proven to be my only, true friend for over nearly two years.

Again, unless something good happens such as retaining an old friendship or that I actually get to talk to the ones I deeply care about, I may cancel suicide but I know for a fact it ain't going to happen.

Xander Sterrenburg
21/12/2016