Notes

(before reading this note, can you go to youtube and search for Nick Santino - I just wanted you to know, please? ehehe. 😊)

January 3rd, 2017. 6:40pm GMT+7

hey there.
you might feel tired of this kind of things already. but, i promise you, you won't get these again in the future. i won't bother you with these stuffs anymore.

it has been a week since we were away. not really away since i still need to talk to you sometimes. ehehe. yes, i can't control and hold myself for not talking with you. i was going to run away from you without telling you but it feels like i leave something important and i can't do that. and i realized that i can't bother you anymore. i can't stay like this all the time. even though it's hard for me to leave you. to forget you. to not talking with you again. but i don't want to be selfish anymore. you deserve happiness. and what people said is true. that if we really love someone, sometimes we should let them go so they can find their own happiness.
"all you wanted was to be set free and i think i need to learn how to let you go. not because i want to, but because you're happy without me. and all i ever wanted was to make you happy.”
i feel empty. your absence hurts. you are my world. you are my happiness. you are the only one who can keep me sane. and i lost you. it feels like, the world is ending. but. life goes on, right?
i'll wait for the day when we can talk to each other again. without feeling hurt. without wanting to ask you why did you leave me. without feeling broken everytime i see you. i want to be able to stand infront of you, stare into your brown eyes, saying thank you. thank you for loving me, for everything that you have done for me. you made me happy. you made me the happiest. you still do. and i hope, one day, you will find someone who can love you the way you loved me once. it felt so good.
even though i say that i need to go, everytime you feel down, everytime you have problems, just reach me, yeah? i'll be here for you. i promise you. i'll always try to comfort you. don't feel guilty. you know where to find me. you know me, everywhere. but i will always pray for you. for your happiness. i want you to always be happy. you deserve every little things in this world. you're precious. you deserve the whole world. remember this.
please always take care of yourself. i said this several times already ehehe. i just want you to love and take care of yourself more than anything. your body, your health is the most important thing in your life. you're strong. you inspire me in so many ways. you're such a nice person. never feel lonely. you're surrounded by people who loves you. you also have the ones who has gone but still loving you, deep inside your heart. and we will always stay there. with you. for eternity.
I'm sorry if i ever did wrong things to you. I'm sorry for everything that i did. i hope you don't hate me. and i hope you won't forget me. because i will never forget you. never.
i'll keep supporting you from here.
and for the very last time, let me say these three words to you.
i love you.
i really do. i mean it.

with lots of love and lucks,
jessica.

p.s ; now, go to google and search for the song's lyrics. those are the things that i always wanted to say to you but i had no guts to.