Notes

I do not give a fuck what people think. But when someone is so sad that they want to take their own life there is no changing that. The only thing you can do is comfort that person and wait for it to pass, because when I say I want to die. I sure as hell mean it at the time.. and I really want to die. When someone is so sad they are cutting open their skin to let the demons out… You can not stop their hand. You can only sit and watch as the blood runs down their arms and the tears wash it away. The self hate and self blame is a mental thing it is not simply fixed with a ” I am here for you”. It takes years to fix what years of bullshit and pain has done to you. I may look like the happiest person sometimes.. But deep down… I am so dead.. So fucking dead. I know things get better.. I have been there done that and it didn’t last.. I got a taste of happiness.. And.. was addicted. I wanted more…but then it was gone just like that.. In the blink of an eye everything that made me happy was gone. And yea you may say ” just wait things get better” Well you know what.. I don’t give a fuck anymore if there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. All i know is that i will keep acting like i am so fucking happy till one of these days someone sees past that bullshit mask i wear and says “hey fuck yo sad face” and then says “lets go be psychos together” and everything works out like that one movie. Till then fuck off… everyone.. I am not in the mood.