Notes

I feel like dying. I hate my life and my family. My parents don't understand me, They think they know me better than I know myself. The only things I actually love in my life are my best friend, the love of my life, my dog, and my cat. Otherwise everything else i say that I love I'm lying. Just something to think about, why do i always wear baggy clothes to school? Why do I always say I hate my life? Why don't people believe me when I say that I have a terrible life? Question #1. Because I literally dont care about myself or anyone else around me at the time, I hate my body, I hate the way I look. Question #2 Because NO ONE UNDERSTANDS HOW I FEEL! No one cares about me, no one would care if I die, no one cares about what I do with my life. Question #3 Because I do. I may put on a smiley face at school and act like everything is fine, but no one knows my life outside of school, no one knows that all I do when I get home is go straight to my room and watch TV, I don't eat for 24 hours every other day because i feel like I'm fat, My dad literally says every time I eat something shitty that I need to watch what I'm eating cause when i get older its gonna come back and bight me in the ass. That makes me feel like hes saying that I'm fat right to my face. No one knows how it feels to come home to a OCD parent that treats you like a house made, no one knows how it feels to have a mom that doesn't care about you, that comes home late every night