Notes

The first thing I'd like to say is i'm really sorry if this woke you up, and it if it did go back to sleep because this is pretty long so it's best if you read it when you wake up.

~So the first part of this is going to be me apologizing for stuff.
-I'm sorry for treating people with disrespect and toxicity making me no better than a cyber bully.
-Lastly I'm sorry for being an extremely depressing person that I know hasn't had any positive
-I'd like to say sorry for accusing you of things that I know you'd never do in the first place.affect on you and only negative making you think that you
aren't good enough when I think you're more than enough in a good way.
-One more thing is that I'm sorry for dumping all of this on you at one time with no heads up.

~Now that I've done my apologies the next part will be the problems I've been having in depth so that it's all summed up.

-First up is family, so you already know the whole thing with my grandfather and the tensions rising between my family and her family. Then you also now
that she's only married to my grandfather so that she can get the money he has when he's gone. You already now the most needed points on this particular
situation so I don't feel the need to go any farther with it.
-Secondly is school studies, Now that I'm in gifted and talented classes I'm expected to do a science project that everyone has had 3 and a 1/2 months to do
while I only have 2 weeks. This particular thing has been making everything far more stressful having to do school work and be worried about every other
little detail in my life that's going on right now.
-Third is school social life, You already know the whole situation with the girl and at this moment i'm getting over her but now some of my "friends" at
school have started trying to get people to mess with me at school which isn't a huge problem as I've got closer friends there that can help me out if things
get messy but at the same time it's more stress and more worry.
-Fourth and finally Overwatch friends, Recently as you know I've been getting ignored and forgotten by people I used to think were good friends of mine and
on top of that earlier today the closest friend I made on overwatch while everyone such as raz, reima, and you were basically taking a hiatus from the game
told me that they weren't going to be able to talk to me anymore because their boyfriend said that they didn't like them talking to some guy on the
internet and thus removed me from everything like Raz did way back when.

~Extra Side note
-The other day when Raz was the only one allowed to hang out with you I do admit to being passive aggressive towards you because I felt like I did back
when I wasn't able to hang out with you guys just because raz didn't like me anymore, so i basically felt like i was getting pushed to the side again like a
washed up ship never to set sail again or a forgotten memory if you will. It felt like everyone chose raz over me back then and not wanting to feel that way
again I got scared. Now that I've though back on it though it would make sense if raz was chose over me and that's probably what would happen, he's a far
better and older friend than I am to both you and Reima plus he's far closer to both of your ages than I am. This in particular has been really getting to me
lately because I'm scared that It's going to end up happening again and this time for good, it's scary to think I might lose the only person I've ever trusted
this much so easily.