Notes

Not talking to you is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do in life. Not having you in my heart is much worst. It’s hard not to think of all the good times we’ve shared. And all the wrong I’ve done in what we had. Ever since the “flirting” situation is spring of last year it has been hard for me not to feel fully responsible for every issue we had. Not being with you rips my heart apart. But being with you and personally always feeling responsible for every issue is mental torture. I’ve never cried for anyone the way I cry for you. I’ve never wanted someone more than I want you. Every fiber of my emotional being wants you but I’m not in the right emotional state at this point in my life to deal with all of our issues. I know I must work on changing myself to become a better person. I don’t ever want you to feel responsible for my actions or words. Thinking of you is bitter sweet. You make my heart smile when u wiggle your eyebrows, when u clear your throat before you speak, when you walk the way you walk. There are so any things I love about you. It’s hard to not have you in my life. More difficult than I can ever express. I know what we had didn’t work because we are who we are. Unfortunately love could not help us simply get along. You deserve peace and happiness in your life. I’m upset with myself that I could not give you to the level you deserved. You are a very sweet man and you should never lose that. I’m saying all of this because I need you to know. Overall you made me a better person: more considerate, expressive, you rekindled an emotional fire in me. I thank you for all of that. I truly want you to have peace and happiness in your life. I have to come to terms with the fact that I just don’t know how to do that for you. I really don’t need you to reach out or respond to this. I only want you to know that you are loved more than I could ever express. And that every feeling you ever gave me (good, mad, happy, and sad) will help make me a better person. Do not lose your faith in women because of all that we’ve been through. And do not give up on love. You deserve the woman of your dreams and as long as you follow God you will get that. Please continue to be the kind, considerate person you are. I love you.