Notes

today was OK until mum went bowling, all the business with Paris was finished...gone but the her friend
Emily waters was one of the girls , one night Paris kept face timing me and calling me over SC and e
Emily was there, she didn't say anything apart from that i was pathetic and she was laughing at things Paris was saying and agreeing, anyways, today i had put x to choose me a picture for Instagram so Emily put x, so i
said why would you want to do that, i thought you hated me , remember when you were with Paris, and she said i know but i didn't say anything, go away you f*****g freak, so i was like ojk then and she kept saying things like i hate you and you have no friends and stuff like that and she was threatening me saying stop getting cocky and stuff which i wasn't surprised at because its Emily ,a
anyway , i just feel like everyone hates me and i have no one to talk to because i don't want to talk to anyone in the family about it but i don't won't to talk to any teachers because its my fault because i had put x to choose a picture, she was saying much worse things over pictures so i could save them as messages, i just don't know what to do because i feel trapped in a bubble where no one can hear me scream, she also started saying that i made her sh herself because apparently i was calling her swear words and dumb and all that rubbish and then she said Olivia told her to kill herself ,i just hate people like thin]s and i just want to live where people cant get to me or try and be horrible, i want to be happy and make the most of being happy before i become a moody teenager, mum is always having a go at me but if i tell her then she will take pictures of the messages and show them Mr Waller and then i will get into trouble so i'm not going to tell anyone and leave it and see if till dies down if it doesn't then i don't know what in am going to do because if she accusing me of making her SH then who know what she will say next, i would never want anyone to sh so she is making me feel bad for something i haven't even done, i'm sick of this mess i just want it all to go away instead of feeling my heart beating out my chest every time i get a notification or every time i see one of her friends in school, i just want to live life without being scared.