Notes

So over the past couple weeks some crazy stuff has happend. Recently, I've been trying to figure out which parent is the worst and its kinda hard to decide. My mom obviously loves my sister more than me and makes me do mostly all of the work and shw doesn't yell a lot but when she does, for example recently she caused me to cry for the first time in 3ish years after she yelled at me for 10 minutes straight. She also doesn't care about what I do but, she still makes food and stuff and is there when i need her so thats good. My dad however is just weird. He leaves me alone but cares about me, he raises his voice alot but doesnt neccesary yell. I think what gets to him is the alcohol, he's been trying to stop but I dont think thats really working. The good part with him is he likes doing things with me, we play board games and watch movies but, he honestly doesn't care what time I sleep or do anything which is good for me but bad parenting skills. Its been such a debate in my head because I know my dad caused all of this so I obviously favor my mom more but sometimes i just feel like leaving both of them or something. Another things is why does nothing ever get better. Whenever somethings starts to look up, it plumments down which leads to my current trust issues. Your one of the only people that have actually heard emotion from me so be proud . I just hope things will get better but then there is that chance that things will just stay the same