Notes

i worry about whats going to happen between Edanielle and i in July when he goes to basic training. i worry about whether or not i would be a good teacher. i worry about my sexuality. i worry about whether or not ill ever gain enough weight to look healthy. i worry about grades. i worry about whether or not ill ever get the courage to carry out the thoughts of cutting or scarring i get sometimes. i worry about whether or not ill get caught reading smut. i worry about Jaidin and Wyatte and whether or not im a good enough big sister. i worry about my parents because i seriously think they would be better off divorced. i worry for my grandma ever since her dog paralyzed his back. i worry about whether or not my future kids will ever have the type of relationship i have with my mom. i worry about if i will ever have the chance to have kids. i worry about what i will do if i have to college anymore than 5 hours away from home. i worry about whether or not Ms Pal will induct me into ITS. i worry about my yearbook pages. about the dances we do. if i would ever be good enough to join show choir.