Notes

What's upsetting me?
I think I'm horridly ugly. I don't think that anyone thinks I'm the least bit pretty, attractive, or anything even remotely similar to that, and now people are starting to prove that. Two of my friends basically called me ugly yesterday, and despite my attempts at building up these walls to shield me from any hate that comes, I'm still not strong enough to handle it. I didn't cry as hard as I would have if I haven't really been focusing on trying to get out of this hole, but I still did, even if it was just for a minute or two. It hurts, but I know what being hurt and called names feels like, so I'm going to save it in my mind, just in case it happens again. I'll find a way to cope with it that doesn't involve hurting myself. You know, I tried searching for ways to help me relax. Exercising was one of the many ways, so I might just try getting fit. I'm a little overweight for my age, and with everything that destiny is deciding to throw at me right now, exercising and becoming healthy would be a good challenge. I'm actually kind of excited to start that. Now only am I going to try to do that, I'm going to try to write more often. I haven't updated Unapologetic Apathy in nearly a MONTH and I don't even have a page yet. I have no reason to be holding it off, but I think that forcing myself to do it when I really don't have the motivation to is making me feel extra-stressed, so I might as well hold it off until I feel comfortable. That would be a good idea.
Anyway, I should stop. I feel kind of better after writing this. I haven't listed off every single problem I've been having (I listed two of them, and I can assure you I have plenty more to go) but it helped, still. Well, that's all. Bye now.