Notes

From the start of the summer I write in roleplay chats to train my writing and knowledge. I had problems these weeks.. I mean I was kinda down, I don't know why..but it was a plus that you weren't here to make me smile. In the roleplay, I mean in Facebook, there's this guy who annoyed me for two or three months. We just started dating when he said he likes me. And he didn't leave me alone. One day I got mad I promised him that when you leave me (if you leave me.. P.S: he made me promise, so he would leave me alone) I would give him a chance. And he was talking only about rp. I mean.. "When Luhan leaves you..you would be mine." That's what he said. (P.S2: You're not only "a" Luhan to me. You're more than that. You're Kevin. My silly. Right?) For over a month he was silent..but then he got mad and he hurt a friend of mine, by breaking her heart, saying he can't be with her anymore because he loves me. That was the time you were missing for three weeks. I accidentally said that you might leave the rp over the 25th. He used me. I gave him a chance back then. It was like.. we were in a secret relationship. And I really got used to him. But then came some drama and he broke up with me..and it was painful. Maybe because it returned my memories. I'm still in pain. Can't you come and...fix everything? And he keeps on the pain, I mean, he might do something foolish.

Okay, I don't know why I'm saying this. Usually a person would keep it to himself. Maybe..not maybe.. I'm afraid that if I keep such secrets I might end up losing you faster than if I don't tell you, pretending "it's to keep our relationship". Usually people keep this as a secret, because they're afraid that they'll lose that person because of the mistake they did. Well, I made a mistake, although it's just online..it's not real (P.S3: I'm serious, I would never do such thing in life. To me you're life. Not only in rp. Again, this is just writing. But if you want to, I would end all writings. I would write fanfictions, but I won't write in roleplay online. As you say. I would do anything. :) ), but I'm telling you this. I'm afraid but I took the risk. Why? I don't think I should keep secrets from you. I should tell you everything that worries me and is on my mind. That's how trust works. Right? I don't want something so stupid to ruin everything. And you're my everything these days. If it weren't you, I might be in a hole now, crying for that jerk from two years ago. (P.S4: So this is my story. WARNING! It's really long, so read it whenever you can, it will take a lot of time. http://notes.io/x5z )