Notes

Have you ever felt like you are talking or singeing but no one can hear you. ever tho they are stranding right next to you. they see you 'YES but do they hear you? do they hear your pain? do they know you have feeling to? so many questions. I have to ask myself but why, why do I have to ask myself I have people to talk to I have people to do to true. but do them people feel the pain how I feel it should I just shut up in stop having feeling, should I lock myself in a drake room. they have people to talk to but I Guisse that's the difference between them in me they like when people say "yeah I hear you, yeah I feel you" but do they really or they just saying that to get pass people feeling faster so they can talk about what they want to talk about should I just listen in be quiet. 'Question have you ever cried going to sleep feeling like you was dairying Tryna gasp for air will I feel like that everyday yeah, I did the fake face, fake smile but did I let my fake get the best of me or the fake people so many questions. why can't I just keep faking everything like I been doing was it really working do I really want my life to be a fake. how will you feel if every time you say something to someone that don't think you as noting but a Lier in not just people it can be you're owe family as will in that's what hurt you the most. all my life I Stade to myself is that bad? why people don't understand me but why would they. no one can understand nobody it's not easy to understand but that's the thing I tried to help people understand me. as soon as they get close to knowing me it's like they run away from me. am I'm the perfect, am I'm the reason I be wanting to hurt myself or is it the feeling talking but why, why do my feeling want me to hurt myself or it was because they don't hear me SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME!!! oh right they can see me not hear me or feel mee...