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i don't know if i'm allowed to say this but i hate my life or whatever is making me feel this way i dont know how to say it but when i walk into school my mood changes and it's a draining place to be at and to go every weekday. i get ready for school and as i'm getting ready i feel my heart get Havey and makes me almost want to cry and when i get home i feel all that lift off my body i don't know if i hate school or just hate something else. people say hate is a strong word so use it when you really mean it so Ima say it I hate school and that i got to go there all day and i act happy and all that because they going to i'm back to where i was last year, when my teacher found my notebook and found out i wanted to harm myself they called my mom and wanted to send me to a crazy house so they already think i'm crazy or whatever they think so if i go to school acting all sad or acting like i don't care there going to think the same thing again and call my mom saying i wanted to harm myself again but this time they will have no proof because i'm not feeling that way i want to harm others not myself so i don't know what they was yapping about, the more i think the more i released how messed up my mind set is like i always thought that no matter what i'm going through ill always thug it out i could be about to cry but i suck it up and thug it out cause i always thought that it will hurt today and you'll be fine tomorrow and i was always right but i think its all a lot of stress and crying and anger all into one waiting for it the explode and come out ion want to sound white or a attention seeker so that's why i don't tell nobody about how i feel the only person that can understand me is me.