Notes

It is time to free my mind after this long time . Normally i do not really journal every day but when i feel the need of talk i do write everything i think about all the feeling and the thoughts . I do not know why it is hard for me to talk to someone about my problems and what is going on in my life . All i know in i need now to talk and free my mind from the day that started repeating himself. i feel lost yeah this is exactly how i feel . I do not know what to do about my life . Inside me i want to do lot of things but i can not move . Feel that i can not do anything . I was thinking that my life will turn in a good way if i came to turkey but i do not know now if it was a good idea or not because now everything has been changed . It was a good idea of start working it helped me to learn the language to talk to people more like being sociable was good for me to be honest even if im not that sociable but it was fine sometimes . We I started working i felt like a gave all my time to my work and i really forgot about my study . I spend all the day on my work that mean all my time is going for my work and it not a job that where i want to be but it was at fırst only for helping my study now it is really taking all my energy and my time as well. I m getting back to my study a little by little but i m still giving the priority to my work but it should not be like that . I have only 21 years but im doing nothing . I m not moving, im not make any step for my future . Now i just repeating my days until ı do not know. Life is short i know that and my dreams that i set up a goals will not come in real life if i did not move if i did not stop being that lazy and work for my self will ended up doing nothing in my life . It is really weird how i know all of that but im doing nothing to change it .