Notes

Feeling some movements next to me, I opened my eyes feeling my head pounding super hard because of the amount of taquila I drank last night. A huge muscled tattooed arm wrapped around my waist stopped me from moving as I wanted to sit up to be able to recognize where I even am.
-stop squirming or you might puke, the person next me talked and I gasped.
I can't believe my ears, nor my eyes. How? when? what happened so me and him ended up in the same room, in the same bed? why is he even here?
-I can feel you staring at me and overworking that brain of yours, he said without even opening his eyes, I carried you here after you blacked out. Welcome to my house kitten.
-how..? uh?
-we ended up in the same place? call it luck, fate, whatever you really want.
-the same fate that has put us apart for months? oh yeah sure! God my head is killing me
-That's on you for drinking taquila like citrus water.
-Thank you so much for caring love, I said sarcastically, and by fate you decided to sleep in the next bed with me too?
-I was afraid you might puke anytime. Call this not care I dare you.
Ignored him and tried to throw his arm away from me but in vain. It was like trying to move a truck with my bare hands.
-will ya? I want to get water.
-you might just ask, he opened his eyes finally the deep blue of them staring at my soul, it's my house so you don't even know where you are.
I rolled my eyes and turned to I faced him with my back and acted like sleeping. Minutes later, he showed up with a cup of water and some pills.
-for your head kitten.
-stop calling me that!
-you stop acting so feisty. you must be thankful not spending your night at the club or God knows where.
-I was with friends. Of course they won't leave me alone.
-the friends that left you the moment you stepped inside that filthy club. yeah right!
-will you stop acting like you fucking care? like you do know what i'm actually doing. Because you have no single right to. You stepped out of my life after literally drugging me with your damned words, saying "oh we need to step back". Okay we stepped back. I waited for you to text, waited for you to come back just waited and waited for one singled word from you like an astronaut waiting to come back to Earth just to catch a breath of fresh air but in all vain. So, why are you here? acting all caring and involving into my business?, I fought tears to seem all tough but my traitor voice was cracking, why am I even here? You could have just told my friends where I am or better, just ignore me, I shouted without noticing, ignore me like you've always done.
-Kitten please, he sat on the edge of the bed by my legs.
-Do.Not.Fucking.Call me that, I cut him off, don't mess with my head Lucas I already went insane.
-Delilah, breathe, he talked with a really low tone, take a deep inhale then exhale.
-What I want to take is all these pills you brought so maybe I die and never see you again.
His gaze softened and he dropped his head:
-I really broke you didn't I?
-Lucas, get out of the room or I will. It's 4 in the morning but as long as we won't be in the same place I don't give a single damn.
-I'll leave, I promise I'll leave the house if you want me to, but please I beg you to listen to me.
-Oh my God
-Listen please, if me on my knees begging for you to forgive me would make you feel better I would do it. Just, please unlock yourself from the sorrow you're holding. I don't deserve to live rent free inside your beautiful mind Delilah. I'm such a trash of a human being for causing all this.
-I'm really sorry but I didn't get to choose you. You did. And now, step the hell out. Now.
-I'm leaving, he held his hands up as if i'm holding a gun at him and i wish i was, try to sleep.
As the door clicked I cracked. How life can be this unfair? Why after all the efforts I did, after all the acts I made to forget this person, i find myself in the same place as him? My brain was racing, flashing all the smiles, all the texts, all the calls and laughs we shared together, just to be killed by one text in one second from him.
-one thing, he barged in finding me drown already in my own tears, i'm taking those pills away. I know how your brain works Delilah so I'll step between you and him.