Notes

I didn't even know you can have notes on pc. But anyways. on this day 11/15/23 is the day i might run away, commit suicide, or loose myself. and i already lost myself. My mom doesn't love me anymore. That's really the whole reason i stayed alive you know? For my mom and my grandma. But my teacher called my mom today and told my mom that i keep acting up in class. I heard my mom crying saying that she failed as a mother. When she really didn't its just me. But i was doing good. Why cant anyone see? Is it because i get in trouble a lot? Maybe. But i have failed as a child, my mom probably doesn't want me or care for me anymore so there is really no reason to be alive. And my grandma? i don't know she's not home yet. i wanna live so i might just run away because i cant bare the pain of my mom not loving me anymore. And the pain of my booty cheeks getting whooped Monday-Friday. That isn't really fair. But for someone who doesn't really care or love their child anymore its a breeze for them because they don't feel bad not one bit. i feel like Connie, Nathaniel, Kenneth and Janeice are really the only people that care about me. I just wanna go away and never come back so whoever still loves me doesn't have to bare the pain of me getting in trouble all the time. I'll go to school but i might not come back home.