Notes

Given the fact that you have given me a few really good reasons to not trust you, I don't feel comfortable having sex with you, I feel like the creating dating websites in January is cheating in itself & lying to me about it & lying to me about cheating on me with carmen & lying to me about katie is a boundary of trust you crossed & it makes me feel used & violated. I remember & will never forget reading that you went on dates with carmen alone when you & I were together, in fact I may have even been with you when I read it. Going out alone with a member of the opposite sex when in a relationship is wrong on so many levels. Befriending ex's is doing nothing, but baiting the hook, esp when those ex's want you back (& they both want you back). That is why you were hiding our relationship back then & I don't deserve that, I deserve to be loved & respected, as do you. I feel the need to be allowed to check up on you, make sure I'm not wasting my time on a man whos only intention is to hurt me. I love you & I want to be able to trust you & to be comfortable with you. Now when it comes to porn that is emotional cheating & another boundary of mine that is not to be crossed. I love you with all of my heart & soul. I want us to have a completely open & honest relationship & hold nothing back from each other, but first we must formulate that trust, for with out trust, we will fail. Without trust there is no us. I love you Jamie but cheating in ANY way, shape or form is grounds for the termination of our relationship. Loyalty above everything Jamie, it's all or nothing with me....now let me know any honest questions or concerns you may have about us or you or me. Do you have any fears?? This is our chance to really communicate & learn, grow & build together. It may be a little frightening at first to truly open up to each other, but Jamie just know that no other person on this Earth loves you more than I do & you can trust me above all others. I give you my word that I will never intentionally hurt you & I will spend every moment of every day proving that & all of this to you. I love you, more than there are stars in the sky. Typing is sometimes easier than saying things out loud & you can reallly put what you're feeling or trying to say into words. It helps to visualize what you're thinking & feeling & organize your thoughts. Do me a favor & try it please?? Write back to me love. Xoxo. <3 :]