Notes

Sigh. I have failed. Fumbled. Jesus lord what have I done.
Insecurities
Self Esteem
Anxious Attachment Style
freedom to move on and enjoy the rest



prequel:
the beginning:
the cause:
the aftermath:
I doubted her feelings. Broke her heart. All the soulmate connection, special connection that we talk about has been broken and ended by me she felt.
friendship toh hai na? she says. considers me as a friend which is paramount to her. i.e most important
she knows I still feel for her after I said it. she says some sonali with bigger capacity will come. she thinks her capacity wasnt enough for me.
she said I deserve a second chance for her. told me about her cute angry rants she will do to me if a portal opens
i am not going anywhere and you are also not going anywhere *says cheekily*
she said ab toh pakka milenge kabhi, fate is funny. but under what circumstances, that will be a suspense lol
she said her heart is intact and now waiting for its protector. After I said I failed miserably, she said you havent, not really.
its okay da. its said, done. you felt remorse and guilt. mistakes happen. realising it, accepting it makes a true knight, queen ki baaat talega tu huh?
I forgive you da. Smile now
Chup, you are knight da. honesty loyalty owning up to the mistakes, these things matter. it requires bravery too.
papa says: galtiya sab karte hain. usse kuch seekho. aage aake bolo hogayi galti, phir nahi hogi.
when I told her that I will become better, hoping it will lead me again to her heart, that cute sa dream, soulful, special connection, but this only gannu can decide. she said it isnt lost da. wo connection hi kya jo toot jaye? we both are still talking here about it. if this isnt connection then what it is?
Haan you said to me something, it hurt me too. but you owned up to it. that matters. no is perfect after all right.
when I said thank you and I cant stop tears, she told eyy paagal look at me, imagine yourself looking at me.
she told me ek baat bolun? its not an irreverssible mistake. i will forget soon and have already forgiven. pls dont cry da veda.
tu saamne hota na I was actually thinking a lot, of all the petty revenge, described the cute funny actions
she trust me that I am different than most of the men, her instincts are strongest, if shes right about someone she is always.
when I vented her about all of the memories i will miss, she said aisa mat bol aniii. maar mat kha nalayak aniket. abhi bhi doubt hai?