Notes

Hey Seth, I'm sorry for writing this message so early in the morning but I hope it finds you well. I've been thinking about a lot of things the past few days and restless nights and I honestly decided on something really big for me! but before I do say anything I want to talk about a few things. When it came to me I always felt weird and not normal, I always felt like I was an alien in a world of people who don't feel or talk the way I do and that was something I struggled a lot of when I was younger and as I grew even making friends felt weird because I felt as if no one liked me or anything, until I met Akaila, she became my first friend and I did not see the way she treated me was as if I was her personal punching bag, but I was so scared to lose her and to be alone. I endured a lot of shit just to be her friend and I never fought back until the day you and everyone else helped me realize and I'm so grateful for you and everyone for that. One thing I will say is you know how much my girls mean to me I would do anything for them they are my world and honestly, they have asked about you like when you will visit them and if they can go play laser tag and bowl with you. Knowing that makes me smile so much I'm so happy you have no idea. But anyways I Always thought my first love was someone I met on Facebook his name was Greg and I really thought he was my first love when i was 14 but the truth is he wasn't he was a psychopath or sociopath I don't recall on which, but I do know is he played with my brain into thinking he was the one. He would tell me how I was his and the things we would do together he was 23 at the time. After Greg I really couldn't date or be a male, I felt gross and useless and a hell of a lot of other shit I tried so much to just be me and date a guy, but I always felt like I wasn't good enough. Until I discovered genderfluid and thought hey maybe that's me