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I feel like you don't fuck w/ me no more bro. I swear to god i love u n shit n i know i've told you how i felt before, and i dont want you to even get mad at me even though i already know you will get mad at me, but idc. I get this feeling you dont like me no more, and it's fine. But it's like if you don't fuck w/ me like you use to. Just say that, because this shit is so fucking stupid bro. I'm so fucking tired of crying because of some shit you make me feel. I swear I thought you was different, but ur not. You're like everybody I've ever met. You ghost me like evb fucking else and i swear u was gon be here for me no matter what. Ion kno what the fuck happened to that, but you lied. I trusted you; I loved you. I still love you, but I'm not going to sit here n cry without you knowing how the fuck i feel. Again, it's like you don't fwm n that's coo. I'm not trippin cs you don't fwm. I'm trippin because you said you did, but you continue to be like everyone else i know. I know you're going to say "oh I've been busy with my irl friends" or "oh I don't be active anymore" but bro. And if i say "oh you can post on your story" you're going to say some shit like "i post and then forget to answer" i know damn well you don't just "forget" to answer. It's like i be wanting to tell you that i love u but we don't even say that anymore. Because you're a weird ass nigga who likes to play w/ my feelings like evb fucking else. You going to say "I'm sorry and ily" but I'm tired of having to forgive and just forget. Ion want to have to keep forgiving shit that hurts me more than anything and it's the fact I know it's my fault. I'm tired of having to say this stupid shit when you should be "here for me" like you said you will. Like at this point. I don't care anymore, im tired of crying for you. I'm not some stupid bitch who isn't going to say my feelings n let you treat me like shit. I'm gonna tell you how i feel whether you like this shit or not. Fuck how you feel cs you sayin fuck how i feel. I feel like this isn't fair to me, sure you are doing good n shit and i'm so happy your girl is making you happy, but please. Think about how I feel, because of how you are treating me. No, i'm not saying you have to only think about me. I'm not saying that. I'm saying what i'm saying because its how i feel. I'm tired of having to text you my feelings 24/7. Even if we do stop talking because i'm saying how i feel and you can't "handle" how I feel. I'll still be here for you, no matter what, because i'm not the type of bitch to wish you feel bad because you've hurt me so much. I used to always want to text you shit n laugh. But now, it's like every time you text me, I want to cry. Because i know you acting weird towards me and your being so different when I have done nothing but show love towards you. I understand, yes you have friends. And I'm not saying "stop being with your friends and only be with me" i'm saying, check on me atleast once. I don't care when, but js lmk you are here for me no matter what. Even if you do start saying that shit because i pointed it out, i can never ever trust you with shit again. Again, i know last time you said "your online friendships dont last" mine dont either. But do you see how much im trying to make this one last? It's fucking stupid i'm trying to make this one last and your not. It just shows me how fucked up you are towards me. Not one thing i do can make you happy. I've told my sisters about you when you've made me happy yes. I really thought you was that friend who would never leave me. I thought so wrong.