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He doesn't know me. He never took time to know me but he assumed he did. Why do my friends know me better than he does? That is when i knew I dislike him. Very pessimistic and demotivating. He tries to scare me but doesn't know I grow from fear. One day, he should be reading this and know the kind of father he was. A week from now he will be buying a recorder to continue his thought process. Is that all the best he could do? I see the future but he disregards it. There are a few people like me in this world but shockingly there are more people like me in the UK. I woke all night after prayers and sat at table to see if he is actually going to put the recorder today. He did not and also did not go to work. It is Sunday today and I know he surely will put it one day. The cameras didn't help him enough. Why would you do all this in the first place? Which father does this to their kids?
Why can you not just be honest with us? Why do you say bad stuffs about people to us? How much do you know them? Why are you always trying to find faults in us?

I feel safe with the one that brought me up. The one that showed me how to live a life. Brought me up with complete honesty and never lied to me. I never lied to her. She sacrificed all her time and money just to make sure we are in the best condition us possible. The only lies she told was saying good stuffs about you to us not knowing we would leave with you one day. If you are reading this, it's too late. I lIve with everyone and they get to know who I am in a day but not you. By now, you should have realised I have no emotions. I laugh when stuffs are not even funny to me. I am never sad. Nothing hurts me except insults. I cannot cry because I have no tears. I force myself to cry just not to make things obvious. That is the only reason I rejected to be a doctor, the first time. I still went along that path just to let you know you didn't waste your money. To be honest with you, I am going to leave my doctor career the first year I become a cardiologist. This is 9years from today, you can calculate for yourself. I would prove to you cardiologist is not what makes you get money. Everything is from your mindset.
Funfact- The last time I actually cried was class 5 when I was beaten for no reason.

Sunday 5th November, 2023
You might have been confused reading this by now but let me break everything down to you right here. I don't lie to you and whenever I lie to you, you think that is the truth but when I tell you the truth, you think I am lying to you. You might be thinking I am being manipulative right now and lying to you- open your eyes and see. You are not the best person in the world, don't deceive yourself.
Now, let me show you why you are Dishonest to me and demotivate me all the time.
- I was going to write my english exam and you kept lying about other people's achievement to me. That they achieved a 9 and a whole lot. It does not encourage me but rather it breaks me. The girl you told me got a 9 actually got a 5. Don't worry about how I know. I am just different that is why you should have taken your time to see who I was. I proved to you that the members of the royal family actually didn't get 9s in their GCSE English but most of them failed. You demotivated me and made me get a 6. I could have done better and got an 8.

- The day before my ucat, you told me this same girl got 3600 and whatever. Not even sure if she actually took it but you shouldn't have lied. Before, you pass harder tests like this, you need to appreciate how hard it is and plan ways to overcome it but you actually switched my brain off. You made me feel stupid and that was not the time for me to prove to you I am not stupid. You always see the negative side of me, hence the 2400. Yes, I got it for myself but thanks to you.

- You called me occult for listening to someone who motivates me. Tim Han gave me lots of motivation words which helped me get the A*AA in my mocks. You cannot have given me those words. Every Dad could have given their kids these words but you would plan ways to spy me instead. We don't threaten people to get better results in examination, you teach them how to feel comfortable doing it. Your little kid should be the one benefitting from this but it is fine. I told you that I had mocks when I was halfway done, if i told you at the start i wouldn't have got that same grade. You would demotivate me, destroy my time schedule and think you have the best ideas in the world but you have no ideas for me. You are nothing like me and have never been like me before.

Don't get me wrong but I hope you remember telling us that Mi5 security and CID track our phones and stuffs. I don't know if you were thinking I was 6 or something. You were telling me this when I was 16. An age that makes me matured enough to vote. Upon all the people in this world, and the country they have to protect, why would they be tracking only me.
Well Done for bringing me to the UK but you did nothing good resisting me from talking with my mum. No one is going to track phone or whatever but if you are the one that doesn't know then I apologise sincerely for criticising you on this.
Don't Presume to be perfect! You are not protecting us, you are making us grow to be something else. You should have realised all the fake happiness. I was asleep but saw you put the recorder at the back of the speakers. I have not gone to look at it. Catherine doesn't even know. You cannot beat me at any game. I am good at what i do. When you put it on top there, I knew it was there but you don't even know how to use it, that is why you thought someone paused it. It actually did the work you wanted it to do. But it cannot record lengthy hours. It does that in short times so it would record in like every nine hours or so. Good luck with your evidence, now i Have showed you how to use it.

I know this is a lot to take in but trust me you could have done better by not being manipulative. Have you thought of what my mum might be going through right now? You don't even care about that.
Whenever you are reading this, you might be thinking I regret bringing this kid to London. He was never like this but the truth is I was worse. I am good now. I see the future but can't control. I knew all these would happen. I expected it. After my mum knowing who I was, she has always wanted me to be a prophet but I can't be a prophet because, there are no prophets in the world. Elijah and Enoch, our prophets will be coming later, the rest are liars and look into worldly things. I wish I knew who I actually was. I live in two people. I sometimes think maybe I am an angel that I don't know but that can't be possible because I am made from clay not fire.

Like I said, if you are reading this, it's too late but you have the chance to choose between your thoughts. I know what you are thinking right now but in summary all that your thoughts are saying is that It is either you regret what you have done or regret taking care of me. CHOOSE ONE. All my fasting and night prayers have always been for you to recognise who I am and decide how to react. Today, is the day I bring all of that to an end; no more fasting, mabybe it has worked. That is the only way I could have showed you.
Are you going to take me to Ghana and abandon me OR are you going to self-examine yourself and be better. The world is an illusion, Everything that happens in this world is pre-planned and we are meant to follow it. Everything will come to an end someday, not now. I hope you get to read my book coming out when I am 20 or 23 with the title "The World is an illusion". It is ready to be published but there are still stuffs that need to occur before it is brought out.

And yes, In case you have been thinking, i have social life. Since, I came to Year 13, all i have been doing is to focus on myself and grow. I want to grow in the mind and physically. Everyone says I don't know how to talk to people. I don't like people and I am a weirdo, I am an alien and others even say I am robotic.

MOST PAINFUL THINGS I HAVE HEARD
1. From a teacher- "Dominic, even though you treat everyone right but you know you don't like people and it is obvious. I am only telling you because you want to be a doctor. You need to try and associate with everyone and relate well with your friends. No one is going to harm you!"

2. From a friend- "when you laugh, deep inside you, it's like you don't find it funny but you laugh because everyone is also laughing, hahahaha"

3. From you- "Jack doesn't learn when he is at table. He only chats to occult people"
I highly know what is right and wrong and occult members can't match my energy. I solely live for God and God alone. I abide by God's words and know the 10 commandments inside out. My aim to live a better life in the world right now and the afterlife is my main priority. May sound complicated but all i mean is that I want to live a happy life in this world and even after i die.

Just to let you know, I have been on social media for quite a while now, even in Ghana. I had well over 2000 followers on Instagram but my account was blocked and I have about 700 followers right now. I am an influencer and not being influenced. As a good child, I don't open instagram on my phone just like you told me not to so don't worry yourself checking. I am more secretive and overprotective than you can think of. I have not hid anything nowhere on the phone, don't worry yourself. You can follow and look at the posts on my instagram instead. I know you have instagram account with 0 followers. Don't worry about how I know. My instagram is Jackofficial49, The old one is Jackempire39. I am not going to delete it so don't bother telling me. I like spending time with my friends because that is the only times i feel better. I try to spend quality time with them and yes i have been out with friends a few times but i usually spend most of my time with them in park. (like maybe 15 -30 mins with them when they are free and I am also free). You can request for pictures I have taken with them. I would show you but you will never see if you don't ask. I am telling you all these so you know your overprotectiveness made us oversecretive. I was expecting you to read this today and I knew you were going to read it today that is why i have opened this DIARY for you.

HINT- Anything you want to ask me, ask directly and don't make it tricky otherwise you will not get the answers you want. You should have known this too ny now. So you can ask me anything you don't understand or want to see for yourself in this booklet.

Thanks for reading and don't think too much about it. I have always been like this. Lots of people told you but you chose to ignore it. Some told you directly. Others told you indirectly but you thought those that told you directly were afraid of me.
They were not! They only knew me better than you!
DON'T OVERTHINK THIS..... IT IS ALSO AN ILLUSION AND NOT REAL!