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Title: Arial. She's pretty like the sea, shes's all I want for me, I can't help but think what life would be like with her, but that will never be. I need help mentally, life is unfair, i just want lay with her, play with her hair, why can god give me a piece of life? I want it but I can't reach, I want to sit on the beach, and play in sand, go on walks and hold her hand. I can't show my emotions cause I'm a man, but I try as best I can to show them, but nobody notices anything I do, I'm invisible to everyone, but all I want is to be seen by you. I don't want you to leave, I want you to be here with me, cuddle and watch TV, stay up till like 3:00, please just notice me. I've been struggling with anxiety, worried she wont lay an eye on me, look away in disgust, call me an eyesore, but I'd still love her. Regardless of what she does or says to me I won't want someone else, I'm stuck in her eyes, I'm ugly I need a disguise, I want to lay with her and look at the skies, in the reflection of her pretty eyes. Every night i cry think on how she don't love me like I love her, her face pretty but I would never want to be degloving her, I just want to be loving her. To her I know I'm a bother, I want to grow up and of her kids be the father. play with our son and daughter but. I have too much damage in my heart I need to cauterise it. Burn it to heal it, earn it to feel it, starting to feel shit, I haven't in a while, the pain it just piles. Just like my thoughts of suicide, I just want you inside of my mind, but it is your love I will never find, I'm not fine, all these night crying, wishing I was dying, in to this pain I'm diving, my wrists I'm slicing, fires in my heart are lighting when i see you, I just want to please you, I need you.