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My life is like Cinderella I get my phone token away for no reason I cry every night begging and asking God what I did to get my phone token. I know that I get my phone token sometimes because I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do like cleaning and even when I do clean, I ask my mom for my phone, and she still says no and tells me to clean something I didn't even make the mess out of. My mom's fiancé only talks to me about cleaning to everyone in this house makes a mess and I'm the one who always has to clean it up my older always says that I'm touching her stuff and I'm tired of it my little sister gets whatever she wants whenever she wants. I ask to go to the store my mom says no the next day later my older sister can go how is that fair? My sister keeps going in my room looking for stuff that's hers and sometimes my little sister goes in her room and takes her stuff, and my older sister always blames it on me because I'm the middle child and when I was little, I used to lie now that I'm growing up, I'm trying not to lie as much. My older sister always wants to fight and I'm tired of it I mostly have to clean my room me and my little sister shares she never cleans and when my mom does tell her to clean, she barely cleans anything. My mom tells me to clean every fucking time and I'm so tired it yesterday my mom told me to clean the table and under the table and my little sister is the only one who sits there every day. I know cleaning is what you're supposed to do but she only tells me to clean. My little sister already has a phone and she's 5 I'm 10 and my older sister is 15. I asked my mom if I could live with my dad then she says oh is it because you don't love me, I love my mom to death but sometimes I just want to be in an all-black room and cry and never stop crying. anyone else just wants to go back to when u was younger cause u miss the old times that u never cried yourself to sleep, only cried when u got hurt, feeling unmotivated, wish everything could go back to normal and just relax instead of worrying about everything? I want to be able to feel like people love me and I haven't f