Notes

Today was another normal day. But it was more than just another normal day. It was showing me for the first time how change feels and how much it can hurt. I know that this change is good for my family and good for my own future. But it is hard to let go. When my parents said that we had to move. I was exited, it would mean we would have a fresh start. We could throw away the stuff we didnt need and organize eour new house the way we wanted to. But I didnt realize the situation we were dealing with. I thought we were looking for a new house because our old one was too big. But we really just runned out of money and couldnt stay. Reality hit me in the middle of the moving process. I wouldnt be able to walk with my friends tto school anymore, and i could'nt walk to the park or the gas station. And the new house is a bit of a new adgustment since it is so small. But I have so many feelings since this whole moving process has showed how much stress my dad has and he has shown how much his is struggling. Today was my dads last day at work. Although it doesn't effect me, It just shows how much change is going on. My mom might get a new job other than realting wich is also very wierd I just cant. I want everything to bee over with. I want to leave and run and escape my emotions and just run. I would run all the way to a empty field. And just Pitch or throw or hit or do anything. And it will just get my mind off of everything.