Notes

yo
ive been in my feelings for a minute now
im rapping so ill let a little out
yo
back then i didnt have big amounts
im talking none to my name
my friends all had Ps i felt a way
i felt ashamed
i was mad at my family
mad at the game
but now i clocked the cards done been dealt
and of course no one gets the same
and feeling a way wont change the flow
i gotta find a different way
and i clocked i can do it by rapping out staves
my inspirations
are rappers like dave
the ones that had no money back then
but are living lavish now
the ones who rarely even got to touch beef
but now sitting on cash cows
the ones who went from selling others bud
to now growing and selling their own loud
I'm tryna build an empire from the earth to the clouds
I already know it's gonna cost big amounts
and if I ever get a wife we don't need to share she can have her own account
first-day ill deposit a couple thou

let me give you my backstory
before I was born my parents came from abroad
when they got together they were sleeping on broken boards
they had my brother then three years later they had me
but unsurprisingly my father would cheat
my half-sister was born a few months before me
he wouldn't do it again and my mother agreed
fast-forward to when I was three he got kicked out
he was still sleeping around my mum could see
it was now my bro me and her jus us three
and of course he was the breadwinner we had no ps
my marj had no job no uni degree
a couple of years went by I got a stepdad but he was a father to me
until he and my marj birthed their daughter
I guess he likes his blood more than me
I was crumbling but then I found out I was dating a cheat
I didn't like my home cos of my mum and my stepdad's beef
my brother was doing his ting he didn't like me
I didn't have my friends anymore my cheating ex turned them against me
I started meeting my friend from primary the one my mum said was a bad influence on me
but now I'm the middle child and she didn't have time to worry about me
so she let me be
my friend got me involved with the wrong people he got me into beef
I was always on the streets he put me on weed
bare in mind I was only 13
I swear everything changed my personality
ayo but a new kid joined my school he was pretty cool
we hit it off and he became my best bro
until he got with my cheating ex at the same school
what happened to the bro code but you know what I said it's cool
we will just say I'm passing u the ball
just don't let her tamper with ur thoughts
guess what he did and now we were beefing we weren't cool
then a person who left joined back again it was the same yute who got fucked up by my friend
but I decided to allow him and we became good friends
we used to vape in stools
the same guy who drawsed my zoot got fried got clocked by school
he snaked me so I got excluded this is the typa shit that gets me mad
for fucks sake I nearly went to court after I fucked him up
I left his face all mangled they kicked me outta school
fuck it I said to myself life is shit so I'm breaking all the rules
I turned into a hoe and a violent yute
I got kicked out of two more schools
Now I'm at my current pru
I'm telling u life's better now i have the stu
I'm pouring it out in tunes
I've chilled out bares after I only got a couple of months left
and I was still hurting so my bro was closer to our dad
but I guess after a couple of missed birthdays we rekindled
we would work on jobs together
until he bumped me for the Ps and wiped off the grid
oh shit I think I'm spiraling again