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ihots started in december 3, 2024. You added me that time in facebook, the i got confused who tf you are, so i asked my friends about it and thy say they dont know you, since that day i'm in a goodmod i accepted you, then you chatted me and say ''hi'' then i replied with ''hellow'' then you asked me if i studied in ERJHS, then i said ''yes, why po?'' then you replied ''nothing just asking'' then i say ''sino po kayo?'' then you replied ''why?'' then i said "nothing'' then you replied '' for nothing?'' then after that you sent me a long pharagrapht of w you are. You say that you're studying in erd which same school where i study at. You tell me all the basic information about you so i dont get uncomfty while talking to you. That nigth i'm doing my activity in tle its fucvking hard because i need to edit a video of my classmates/ groupmates. It's already 12am that time and we started talking in like 9pm then we talked untill like 1am?? i forgot HAHAHA but that nigth you say that if you just have a load you'll help me with my project because i asked you if you can help me with my video editing then you asked me if i found you're main account then that time im confused because i thougth that the acount that you're using is you're reall acc but then you asked me to add you in you're reall account you tell me the name of you're reall account, i tried to find it in fb but i only found a accound with the same name but the pfp is a dog. I asked you if you're dp ba was a dog but i think i just insulto you that time because you just laugh at me and say ''ansama mo naman HAHAHA muka bang aso yon'' that time i was verry curious what you're talking about because its the pfp of the account but then you said that ikaw nalng mag aadd sakin. I waited for your add then i accepted you then doon palang nag sink in na yung pfp mo pala is ikaw nakababa yung phon then naka silip ka while smilling you looked verry cute sa pic nayon then i stalked you then i say that nag wworked kana pala then you said nga na working student ka. That time palang ako naniwalang taga erod kanga because nakita ko yung pic mo naka higa while naka pose ng pice sign then yung unifrom mo is simmilar nga sa erod, nasa likod mopa yung anak ng tc namin that time sa math. We talked for hours that time we talked and talked yung topic natin that time is hindi naman ganon kaganda actually ang confusing nga ng topic natin that time eh its just a random chats but were both happy, you asked me if pwde kabang makipag friends sakin then i said ''yes'' then nagpaalam nakong mag sslep nako that time. I waited na mag chat ka ulit. Inaantay kita araw araw then after a week nag chat ka ulit, that time nasa school ako then may pinapagawa sa math namin pinapasulat. Tumatawa ako mag isa nonHAHAHAHA kasi yung topic natin grabe then sa wala nakong nasulat nag cram ako non AHAHAHAHA then aftr kase ng math namin recess na so trinay kita kausapin nung recess namin then bigla nag bago attitude mo that time bigla ka nalang naging cold then sabi mo tapos na break niyo. I asked you that time if totoong nag ttrabaho kanaba talaga then nag yes ka, pinakita kopa yon sa cof ko HAHAHAHA pinag yayabang kita that time. After non nag wait nanaman ako sayo kung kelan ka ulit mag cchat. Hindi ako nag ffirst mmove sayo because i know that you're a busy person and i know na nahihirapan ka sa wok mo sikip ng sched mo so i just wait and wait till mag chat ka. I even pray for your saftey and pray na sana lord will give you more strength. Napabayaan ko sarili ko that time focuss ko sayo. Then one time nag notes ako sa mess ng ''roblox'' you replied there sa notes ko sabi mo tara theng play tayo non nag start tayo 1am natapos tayo mga 5 na HAHAHAHA then you even sent me a picture of your half face ang ganda ng eyes mo then the jawline is giving, you sent me a picture of your siblings din sabi mo mga junakis mo. After that long long long conversation sabi mo matutulog kana because may pasok kapa so natulog nalang din ako. I'm so happy that time to the point na nakit nakapikit nako naka smile parin AHAHAHAHAH but then after that i wait nanaman dati every 2 days tayo nag uusap then naging sa isang linggo isang beses pero i just gassligth my self na busy ka lang and marami kang ginagawa kahit gaano ka katagal bumalik tinatanggap pardin kita eh. ganto concept natin non, we talked then i wait wait wait then we talked nanaman then i wait nanaman for so tagal na panahon then i asked you sa date ng bday mo because naalala ko same kayo ng nanay ko ng sign then april na that time then sinabi mo nga na april 29,2007 ka then nilagay ko kaagad sa callendar ko yon HAHAHAHAHA then kada usap natin naka lista sa callendar ko may mga emoji panga HAHAHAHAHAHAHA inantay ko hanggang sa bday mo siguro akalamo nakalimutan ko because the day bfore your bday nag chat ka. That nigth before your bday kabado nako acually buong araw ako kabado eh tas nag md pangako ng countdown sa ig then nag alarm ako ng 12:00 just to great you happy birthday ka vc kopa mga friends ko non kasi nga kinakabahan ako then saktong 12 i greated you happy birthday acttualy pagka great ko sayo kinabahan ako because ambilis mo mag seen, inaantay ko yung kahit react mo that time peo wala nag breakdown nako sa friends ko that time then sabi nila wait daw kita untill 2 pero 1:30 you replied salamuch then react heart to the message that i sent to you. After that day i waited nanaman for a long long time.Sinama ako ng tita ko pauwi ng province grabe yung iyak ko non then i feel so comfort naka tingin lang ako sa pic mo while crying then i was begging god na mag chat ka because i can't stop crying. That tim doon lang nag sink in sakin lahat na ako laging ready sayo, i always here for you, i waited for you even it takes a long long time. Imalways excited pag nag cchat ka or kausap kita but you just give me a cold and parang pinaparamdam m sakin na ayaw moko kausap HAHAH then prang npipilitan kalang na kausapin ako. Yes it hurts ofc but i dont have a karapatan para mag reklamo that time sinabi ko sa sarili ko na i give up na sayo but i still like you and still hoping pero habang nandoon ako sa place na yon i healded my self na eh i practice na isang month wala kang paramdam hanggang sa i used to it yung parang walang nag eexcist na ikaw. You chatted me so many times habang nandoon ako pero ginaya kita i copied elahat yung attitude mo towards sakin yung cold typings mo, then yung way how you treated me. Pinakita ko sayo gaano kasakit yung actions mo towards sakin hanggang maka uwi ako here sa manila ganon attitudes ko tawards sayo eh. I think nanibago ka because sinanay kita sa laging masaya na treat ko sayo na enrgetic treat ko sayo those comforting words lahat ng ginagawa ko nakapaikot sayo yun yung bigest mistakess na nagawa at ginawa ko because sam was rigth i wass dumb that time na gagawing mundo yung isang tao. September 1 my birthmonth nag reply ka sa notes ko i was finding some working student that time then you assked me if ilan paba need ko then i just answered you i miss our conversation that time so my attitudes towards you was verry energetic and happy but then while nag usap tayo bgla nag bago attitudes mo sakin bigla naging cold then i just saw your notes with mussic sa babang part name ng girl pinagtatawanan pa namin yung that time but then when i stalked your dump account i saw a verry beutiful girl with the same name. IT FUCKING BROKE ME A PART THAT FUCKING 9 MONTHS UMAASA AKO SAYO I THAUGH IKAW NA I EVEN THOUGH NA NAKAPAG HEAL NAKO BUT HINDI PARIN PALA I CRIED FOR HOURS I EVEN PRAYED THAT TIME I CRIED HARD THAT TO THE POINT NA NILAGNAT AKO NG 2 DAYS I SUFFERED NOT TO TELL ANYONE BUT ONLY MY FRIENDS AND SAM I CRIED THAT MY EYES HURT SO BAD I CRIED SO HARD TO THE POINT NA SOBRANG INIT NA NG ULO KO IF YOU TOUCH IT I CRIED SO HARD TO THE POINT NA I CANT BREATH NA I CRIED SO HART TO THE POINT NA KINABUKASAN INAYA KO UMALIS MAG LIBANG YUNG KAIBIGAN KO BECAUSE DIKONA NGA KAYA AS IN IT HURTS SO BAD THAT ILANG ARAW KO PINIPILIT NNA TANGGAPIN LAHAT SIGURO KUNG HINDI KO PRINAPAIRE SARILI KO SA BICOL PALANG NA MAG MOVE ON NA SAYO SIGURO I DIED BECAUSE GRABE YUN GRABE YUNG SAKIT NON BUT NALAMPASAN KO LAHAT AND WALA KANG ALAM HOW YOU HURT ME HOW I CRIED FOR YOU HOW IWAITED A LONG LONG TIME FOR YOU HOW I BEG GOD NA SAKIN KALANG HOW I PRAYED FOR YOUR SAFETY AND MAKE YOU EVEN MORE STRONGER YOU DONT HAVE ANY IDEA NA GANON KALALA YUNG GINAWA MO SAKIN YUNG SAKIT NA GINAWA MO SAKIN GRABE YON AHAHAHA BUT INAYOS KO SARILI KO NAG PAKALMA AKO AND NAG SINK IN NA SAKIN LAHAT NA YOU HAVE A LIFE RIN I CANT CONTROLL YOUR LIFE AND WALA AKONG KARAPATAN SAYO SO I THINK THIS IS THE RIGTH TIME NA PARA I CUT OFF KNA I CANT HURT MY SELF LIKE THAT AGAIN IT BREAKS ME THIS IS THE ONE LAST TIME NA I PRAY FORYOU NA I WILL WRIGTH A LONG LONG ESSAY FOR YOU I THINK TIS IS THE RIGTH TIME TO MOVE ON FROM YOU NEED KONA UMUSAD JUST ALWAYS BECAREFULL IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU IM ALWAYS PROUD EVERY SINGLE NA GINAGAWA MO I HOP NA HINDI KA SASAKTAN NIYANG GIRL NA PINILI MO SANA SHE TRAT YOU BETTER LIKE I DID I HOPE NA SIYA NA TALAG YUNG PARA SAYO SO THAT YOU DONT EXPERIENCE THIS KIND OF PAIN I HOPE NA MAGING SUCCESSFULL KA SOMEDAY JUST FORGRT ME MY NAMEOUR MEMORIES EVERYTHING OBOUT ME PLEASE FORGET THAT I EXSISTED FOCUS ON THE THINGS THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY DONT GIVE UP ON LIFE I KNOW GOD HAS A BETTER PLAN FOR YOU BE STRONG FOR YOUR GF AND FAM I KNOW YOUR DAD IS NOW PROUD OF YOU PAG PTULOY MO LAHAT NG NASIMULAN MO MAY IBBALIK YAN SAYO I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVED YOU RANIN BUT THIS TIME UUSAP NAKO HA JUST FORGET EVERYTHING I KNOW ITS NOT EASY BUT WAGMO PILITIN AND MADALIIN SARILI MO MAKAKALIMUTAN MO RIN AKO TILL THE LAST I LOVED YOU.