Notes

Priya Priyamesh,

I Like You soooo much and I’m extremely sorry that I couldn’t be better than my current self this evening. I can’t nearly express just how much I admire smiles on your cute face. And you have no idea how much I hate myself for not being able to get one on your face today. Crushes me ki I instead inverted that. Upset you = upset me. My heart skipped multiple beats since the moment I realised I did it again. Really need to fix my interruption tendencies. I’m aware and am working on it. And just these words are not going to make anything better for you, I know. Only wish that until I got better at it, there was a way for me to take away your share of hardships and chaos. As stupid as it sounds, I really hate to stand incapacitated when it comes to keeping you happy.
You had a long day today. Slept late last night as you were studying for a good job. Then again new day, you made more efforts today. A hope was planted in you regarding a job and you were waiting for some positive conclusion. But it did not turn out as you were expecting. You must have been feeling awful. Then for me, you come down to play with me even still. You hoped to share and I could have given you an outlet. But I screwed up. All I needed to do was listen. Something very basic. And I’ve screwed up before in the same way too. You addressed. I understood and agreed with you on the fact that I needed to improve here. And yet….
I’m SORRY!!!
I’m not saying this to you with an expectation from you to understand it will take time or anything . But I really do want to tell you that I see my shortcomings and the impact it can make. This bothers me the same as it does to you and I genuinely want to improve. And I will ensure I do that!

I want to be a reason for you to smile and laugh and for you to be happy. I also want to stand with you in not-so-good times. I lost a chance to that today evening. I probably deserve that. But you can still choose to allow me to at least know what I missed. Please! It would mean a lot to me if you can find it within yourself to share anyway. Hate me right now, but please let me in….please!!
I promise you, I’ll get better and one day start earning this privilege by myself.