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ek saja pyar ka
me atul kumar gupta is going to write a story about a part of my life which is a curse and bless for my life curse isliye kuki maine use puri tarh smjha nhi ar bless isiliye kuki usne mujhe puri tarah smjha ar mujhe bhut kuch diya jo sayad life se ab expect nhi kar skta .
about me-
name - atul kumar gupta
location -maharajganj (uttar pradesh )india
m ek bhut hi sararti ladka tha but dara bhi rhta tha ajib sa combination tha mere m jaise sbhi properties milkar thodi thodi matra m mere m sama gyi ho. maa bhan k alwa ghar m sabka sath to tha but pyar nhi .Ar yhi wajah tha ki m kud ko hamesa akela mahsoos karta tha papa mujhe kbhi bachpan se bahar logo k bich m nhi rkhte so mujhme ajib sa badlaw tha m baki ladko ki tarah kud ko normal feel nhi karta tha ar logo ko bhi dheere dheere iska ehsaas hone lga tha .bachpan m mera koi best friend nhi bn paya kuki sbme m nhi fit ho pata tha .ar galti se koi bnta tha to wo kuch ar k liye bnta tha ya to papa ki reputation k liye ya to mujhe kuch alag soch k like physical relation .kabhi kbhi m bhi kud ko aisa hi smjhne lgta tha par bakiyo ko dekhta tha to lgta tha nhi m aisa nhi hu. manta hu jitni bate maine likhi hn wo thoda complicated hn par sachhai yhi hn .abhi bhut hn bate mere bare m par wo bad m btata hu nhi to apa saja ar pyar nhi bta paunga bhut hi ajib hn na ye so now come on that part thats i want to share.

physics coaching 2008
septemper 26 saturaday ki subh 09 bje ki class thi sare ladke khade the ladkiyo ko dekhne k liye m bhut ajib tha mujhe class m 3rd sheet par baithna hota tha so m class m chla jata tha .mujhe us time smjh m nhi ata tha ki akhir 09:00 bje tk sari ladkiya andar aa chuki thi par laghabhg pheeche mostly beches khali the maine socha chlo acha hn aj ladke jayada nhi honge to sir se question jayada kar skte hn par achanak se sare ladke andar aa rhe the ladte hue jaise ki andar free m koi saman bat rha ho ar wo line se bulaye ja rhe ho tbhi ek ajib sa ehsaas hua wo ehsaas m aj tk nhi bhula pagal kar dene wala wo ehsaas kisi k aahat ka tha wo thi ek blue dress m suit phne mere just age se gujarti hui just front side m baith gyi m thik se use dekh bhi nhi paa rha tha par pata nhi ku bar bar dekhne ko man kar rha tha .tbhi sir ne ek nam pukara "pari". usne kha "ji sir"
sir ne kha aj phir se late .usne khade hokar excuses dena suru kiye m bas sunta rha un labjo ko par kuch sun na ska ye ehsaas kbhi nahi hua .phir achanak se dimag kuch suru hua ki yar m unme se nhi hu jo iske liye hue .yaha mera mtlb sirf pari hi nhi pari jaisi koi ladki ya koi bhi ladki mujhe pasand nhi hos kti kuki mujhe to confusion tha ki akhir mujhe interest kisme hn boy ya girl.kuki m rahul ko bhut jayada manta tha wo agar mere se bat nhi karta tha to mujhe lgta tha ki jaise sb kuch viran ho gya maine ye bat yaha isliye likhi kuki yaha iski wajah smjh m ayi thi akhir ku rahul ko m pyar karta tha. m 1 ghnte ki class k bad room par chla gya us din maine chemistry ki class nhi ki. room par jakar chup chap so gya .5-6 din tk m class m kuch nhi bola .phir next monday ko whi bachho ka khada hona m sidhe andar chla gya actually us din m phiche baith gya m ro rha tha kud par kisi se kuch kh bhi nhi skta ar btata bhi to kya btata ek to waise bhi mere kam dost the ar bhi nhi bnte .phir sare bache bina sor saraba kiye andar aa gye m sabse last m baitha tha jagah age wali bench par bhi thi .phir kuch der jab m likh rha tha to koi mere pas akar baith gya m feel kiya sjeeb sa dard kud m maine dekha pari thi .m hakka bakka rah gya sir achanak se bole pari age aajao ek sheet khali karwata hu phir pari boli nhi sir m thik hu meri wajah se rhne do itne log pheeche baithenge mujhe smjh m nhi aaa rha jis wajah se m pheeche baith rha hu wo mere sath baithi hn .m bina kuch bole smane dekhne lga sir question kar k sbko kade kar rhe the pari ko jabab malum nhi tha par use pata nhi kaise pta tha mujhe malum hoga use kha "atul" mujhe btayenge iska answer to maine likh diya upper wali page pr notes k m to ye soch k hairan tha use mera nam kaise malum .phir jab chutti hui to jab sb nikal rhe the to pari ne kha kya tum thodi der k liye rukoge gali m .phir m shocked ho gya .jab sb nikal gye to m uske sath bagal wali gali road ki taraf khada ho gya.usne kha kya hua tm aj pheeche ku baithe the ar aj koi question ku nhi pucha .maine bola phle ye btao tumhe mera nam kaise pata ar tm mujhse aise bat kar rhi ho jaise kafi din se janti ho .wo muskar di ar boli jaya tension mat lo line nhi mar rhi hu m
.M sirf ye khna chahti tum hamesa sb ladkiyo se majak karte rhte ho comment paas karte ho questions puchte ho wo band ku kar diya mujhe pata hn tumhe sunkar ajib lg rha hoga ki m tmhare bare m itna kuch kaise janti hu wo m ate hi sbhi ladkiyo se bat ki thi wo har bat m tmhara nam leti thi so mujhe pata chla tm bakiyo se alg rhte ho ar tm baki ldko ki tarah ladkiyo ko us tarh nhi dekhte ek ache dost ki tarah rhte ho .mujhe such m kuch smjh m nhi aa rha tha ki m kya khu .usne kha acha mujhe late hoga m ja rhi hu lekin kal phle wala atul okay dur jate hue bola.m khada hi rha bye kiya usne....