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Hi sorry, I wouldve typed this in normal chats but honestly Im really scared to talk right now after everything today, first the thing this morning, the thing at lunch then the 1st half of the bus, then we stopped talking and on the way back the shit I overheard you and tegen saying honestly ruined my day so, yk Im going to start sitting in the middle or back of the bus and just avoiding tegen except for at lunch since I dont want to sit alone, you can stay up front but I just cant deal with his crap, probably wont go to the artclub this week because of it tbh, just really sick of him.

Im going to go on a night walk, I wouldve invited you but we arent talking and, as I said im really scared to talk to you, my chest hurts from how hard my hearts been beating so, I need to take a break and just walk around I think. I also saw you on minecraft so I hope youre having fun! I tried to join but, kinda wont let me so I wont bother asking to. Theres alot of things I think we should talk out but I really dont want to say them since Ill just feel really horrible and guilty and thats what sucks. Either way, no matter what I do its hurting alot.

Ill still type your goodnight thing later but, I really just cant deal with this today, it hurts alot after how good of a day we had yesterday and idk, just kind of gut wrenching. Anyways Im going to head out, idk where to go so might just go to the park and sit in the tube but, Ill find out what happens I guess, bye bye ily