Notes

I feel like an outsider. Like I don't belong. Some people might say I'm doing too much or I'm overexerting but it's how I feel. Well u might ask why do u feel this way, Destinie? I feel this way because I feel like I'm here but not here like I'm just invisible like nobody at all can see me. People always say that I'm always mad and not talking to nobody will that's because i wake up every Moring thinking something will change but yet nothing new ever happen. No body comes to me ask me how my day going I love when people Cheak up on me, but I guess no one do that anymore. Nobody talks to me they say it's because I stay in my room all day but when I get out it still feel like I'm left out. I hate it my mama want to give me up to my dad because she gave up on me and I'm broke her heart. She doesn't want me anymore I try so hard to be a good child and do what's right but it's always the devil on my back trying to get me to do wrong. I started talking to myself it helps a lot it kind of make me feel like I'm not that alone because I got myself. I mean it's not that much love but it's enough for me. I don't have anybody to talk to about my problems because even time I try somebody say I'm just overexerting and say I need to stop thinking like that because they love me. I don't feel that love I feel nothing but hate. I write things down to not keep all the feelings inside even though it still is the writing makes me feel like it's not just myself in this situation even though it's kind of is.