Notes

nothings wrong with attempting to be high. if you have just the right setting, set of memories, set up, life, environment, and do it just right, with the right people or lack of people, good timing and control of outside infiltrations, slash outside stimulations, and careful attention to tolerance, and chemical balance, it can be done with a surprising level of success.
there is a good chance that this is a better way to exist. but it is not easy, under certain conditions. it is in fact, very difficult under certain conditions, and very easy under others. for example, as you age, and are therefor thrust into the world, more and more having to deal with randoms in closer and closer ways, for longer and longer durations, that makes it much more difficult to control outside stimulations/ slash infiltrations. additionally, as you age, your brain becomes infested with bad memories and corrupt lessons. your brain develops and becomes capable of more complex thoughts, involuntarily making larger connections than ever before from any offering of stimuli. this makes control more and more difficult, and with the natural state of anxiousness, fear, mistrust, unnecessary discomfort, and anger, this is where the natural state will inevitably go when the possibility of control becomes less likely.