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If my face look good, would it be good enough to me like too? if I'm Bi, a Straight, a Girl would it be enough to satisfy you? Sometimes i asked myself why I'm still chasing you instead of letting you go...... my answer is I love you from the moment i saw you. Yes, HAHA na weird baga nakita ko lang ikaw napamahal na, didto ko la kasi na-realized na nagkaka gusto ako i mean literal na nag ka gusto yeah ofc i found you attractive that even my eyes would'nt stop looking at you HAHAHAHA. We had a conversations you gave motives I thought last na idto na pag sabi mo na dli mo pa kaya mag settle so i waited, and I Tried to forget you. Nag hanap ako san way para makalimutan ka i spend more time with my friends i tried to delete your pictures and yeah probably i forgot you, and Then i met David, i have no idea that he's your friend so he called me oohhh gin block ko gali ikaw HAHAHA so i was saying naga talk kami and David knew about you so kala ko keri lang HAHAHA and then i wonder why kinuha mo phone niya you don't even say "Hi" nor "Kamusta?" honestly i unblocked you and added you cuz i think and i thought it'll be fine soooo that's only my thoughts so it was failed kasi nagbalik na feelings ko ikaw nag first move si syempre gin kilig ako and we had a conversation naman and then after nawara dli man ako na bothered but still Crush ko pa ikaw and then aram ninda mae si they were supporting us, me rather kasi she knew na gusto ko ikaw and she knew all about you so she were my source to know everything about you so nag ship ship naman like san grade 10 moments dli ko aram kun kinilig ka talaga or pirit la idto so gin pabayaan ko na aram ko na magiging mixed signals nanaman so i'm FULL OF PAINS sad to na time/DAYS kasi kala ko you're being real wara akon idea kay dli kaman maaram mag open san nararamdaman mo nonchalant ka nayawa ka eh dili mo aram kun gaano kag pirmi nag titinangis everytime na may naarman ako na negative about you you know naman about kay Mary Rose so dli ko na idto i sabi pa didi kay mas MASAKIT SAKIT IDTO si Atasha la naka aram san tanan na hinanakit ko na halos dli ko na aram an hihimuon ko everytime na naiisip ko ikaw iba an atake mo na hasta yana dara dara ko pa GRABI AN GWAPO MO!!! pero maski man ngani gwapo ka dli ka maaram mag sabi san nararamdaman mo mas ok pa siguro ma reject kesa ma hatagan sa MIXED SIGNALS Pero san gin hunga mo ako kung Bi ako naging totoo ako saimo so sabi ko "Gay ako" sooo i was scared that moment kasi na question ako also kahinaan ko kasi like feeling ko pag nababanggit ko an "Gay ako" i feel kase kung katanggap tanggap ba ako? Katanggap tanggap ba kami?. and sabi mo "Bi ako blah blah" i think and i also felt sadto na bagan you don't like Gays i mean dli ka nagkakagusto sa Gays? so i was soo hurt and cut me off and then December nag paramdam ka dli talga ako nadara sa una palang maski sa panduha man kay ngani irog ko ikaw san ka palangga kag irog ako sana katanga para la saimo pero FAILED man gihapon, Guru gab-i gina isip ka kay ikaw man la mismo na pop out maski sa pag surat ngani ikaw ra jud an naga labas ibahan sa Feeling na matagaan kan MIXED SIGNAL and especially nasabihan san "Iloveyou" siguro an definition san Iloveyou saimo way of thanking to people? or gawain mo na talaga ina siya i feel so stupid oo pero wara kao mahimo I really tried my best not to think about you but temptation always win kahirap man yana na gina tago ko nala kunware dli ko ikaw gusto pero amo an nakikita ko na maayo ADMIRING YOU FROM AFAR is a good way to love you secretly TODAY APRIL 18 2024 APRILFOOLS won't work to me at this time kasi i was still TRULLY INLOVED WITH YOU p.s iloveyou.