Notes

Dear Caleb I know I ain't been the best person you could ask for but i do know i love you and always will no matter how bad our situation is I've always promised us id be here until death do us part because you mean a lot to me even if were arguing going at each there throat. Caleb since we was kids i was in love with you I've always thought you was my childhood lover best friend someone I can go to when i need to just talk to someone you use to always listen to me even when you didn't feel like it you would always hold me close to you and tell me everything's goanna be just alright i knew i was safe and everything was okay as long as I was with you and when we went our separate ways it hurt me and then when you rushed over there to make sure I was okay and brought my spark my hope back and when i started throwing all these feelings out and you held me in your arms in Gavins bed i felt at home again and you sleeping with me all wrapped up together i knew it was or hoping it was us together forever. ive made mistakes after them and you still coming back and I'm grateful for it and i thankful for all you've done for me i screwed up the love of my life and my future i regret it i was hoping we could come to a agreement but i hurt you and i cant have you and something i love too do i wish there was away you could see i dont do what im not supposed to do but the sport wont give me this big future i want with this incredible most wonderful most outgoing carrying guy i know i had my future planned since i was kid with you since now from the time i was a kid to our anniversary and marriage. Ive realized ive hurt us from since then your all i think about about since the time i wake up too the time i go to sleep i lay my head down knowing ima be okay and safe everyone ask why i still hold on and i tell them no matter the good days or bad ones im here until death do us part bc i know nobody will love me like he did bc when i first laid eyes on him he brought the little girl i use to be smile back he brought my laugh my life back together he loves me for who i am not just part of me i tell them some people thinks its puppy love but its full grown love bc no matter the days or what comes iun between us we know we Forever he holds me together he pushes me to be the best i can be hes the one i want to be in the hospital when im pushing out the gifts from god our kids hes the one who will hold me in his arms even if we are going at each others throats hes the one who i want to come home too and smile knowing im happy and safe i wnat him to feel the same way hes the one i planned everything with since our kids to our anniversary trips he brings the smile out of me i hes the one how do i know that because when im with him i dont have to fake a smile he makes me smile where its bigger than ever ive relaized id probably lost the best things that ever been Mine but i do know will both come through and relize we need each other to be happy it will always be us together theough thick in thin and im in love with him alwsys and forever.