Notes

Have you ever wanted to just kill ys? That's me. I know this is all cheesy shii, but I'm being for real. I'm done for my brother and my sister calling me that I'm fat. I haven't eaten much since. I think I'm overthinking but it's true... My grandmother is slowly slipping away from me too. I trusted her the most, just deeply inside of me. I feel like my luck is turning the opposite. I hope I can lose weight over the break and yeah. Please god, I pray that I'll lose weight. please?? I hate myself for even trying so hard. I hate my siblings, they are fucking bitches and they can smd. My brother snitched on me for calling him retarted when I haven't told about something he said. (I can't tell, maybe later.) My sister, ten times worse. Her friends? The baddest bitches. (Except for lauren, half of camdon, half of maddie, luna.) Sunday is just... She's annoying honestly. She told me to kms. or die, I forgot. I cried in the school bathrooms, I wish sunday never existed. I wish she never knew me, I wish I never knew her. I wish I can tell her this but she's gonna be yapping 24/7. My sister talks shit about her sometimes but I never tell sunday because I'm afraid what my sister will do to me. Though, other half of me doesn't really wanna kms. What about my friends? What about my cousins? I'll miss them and it'll hurt me, bad. But I just wanna go missing, disappear. (not kidnapped of course.) But those are different things. I hope these thoughts don't get into my head. Please god keep me safe. Amen. That's it, bye