Notes

gonna take the message a while in your inbox. But you do reply sensibly, and i do like what you say, but sometimes it feels like I might have done something wrong to you and that's why I'm not sure sometimes. N There's so many wonderful things you have helped me with that I really appreciate a lot and I mean it from the heart. I'm not angry or anything at you, i just don't want what we had going with our friendship to be lost and then we drift apart. You gave me back confidence, strength and courage and that's what i appreciate.

So what if your words may seem like a slap in the face to me, I need the slap to wake me up full force... That's what I like from you and you keep me in check, trust me I need someone who is stronger than me to give that push and courage,n someone to keep me in check! because I wouldn't be able to do it if you didn't give me the drive n that's why I said you are like a husband, why because you posses those qualities n trust me I like when you are husband like to me with your words, I mean what man doesn't know how to keep a woman in check unless he himself is a strong willed person, right?

Don't worry about your punches give them to me! Your words are like punches of love, if I can deal with people like a Paula and people from my pervious job im quite sure I can take your punches because there's is ten times worse and it's not out of love because they don't care... That's why I come back to you, because of your positive advice and energy, remember i said when Iam weak you are my energy.

N that too is why I mentioned my other male friends were not like you, I do have another male friend i went to high school with that I'm still cool with, but he's nothing like you and not as strong, he's sweet but certain things he's not as strong in as you, trust me you are very very sweet too, but you romario are very special to me n there's a reason why god put you in place in my life as my friend, maybe he won't let you be my boyfriend, Husband etc, but my best friend yes...

Why because every girl needs a boy best friend who is like a husband, boyfriend and friend all in one! Give me your punches of love and be yourself with me... I don't care. I'm real and comfortable with you, be real with me, let me see who romario is. Whatever woman you end up with and she can't see what I see she must be blind as a bat, because I see a very strong willed man in front me that has a lot of built up courage inside of him and let's nothing stand in his way, n that's you!

I mean look at what I'm dealing with, with my dad, why am I strong now? It's because of you... You gave me the strength to realize that its important to stay positive in every situation that seems to eat me alive, you made me realize not to let the negative control you, let the power of positivity do the work you! I maybe be moody, I may be weird, but I'm still a humble person to you and share my love of friendship with you, let's just work together and not let it die out and keep it alive. You make laugh, sometimes irritate me with the no responding sometimes n because of your difficultness it gives me a great challenge in having patients and love for not just you, but people in general, you said that I have to be patient and what am I learning to be patient! Just be open with me and communicate with me, whenever you have the chance that is, is all I'm asking and nothing else. I miss the old you.