Notes

Okay so ..I will not be rude .. just read this .it's important for you .. person to person
Badme padh lena idc
You're entitled to know this ..
I know you lied a lot
My lies were ..
A day before I met you on hinge i ended stuff with my casual after I had fallen in love with him ..his name was Aman .. Muslim tha
So my heart couldn't take that and then you came along
I started talking to you
Yes I did use you to some extent
I think your consciousness must not know this but you do this automatically idk ..
You manipulate people in a very different way
I have not seen a case like you in 3 years
And you're the first one that got away before I dealt
I'll be honest I learnt a lot from you and the way of you laying out things to get what you want is impressive....
I have seen worse .. mostly in dating women
You have a lot of feminine energy tbh that gives it away..and I'm attracted to feminine energy
You unknowingly make people suffer or like to be in control
You claimed you loved me
Asked me to come to a flat to do weed on first meet..??
But put your hands in my pants on the first date
Before meeting you you continuously messaged me asking for a lot of reassurance..made me feel
bad if I didn't respond
Hazaar voice notes and stuff
That was good honestly
Before meeting in botanical to you sent me a playlist saying you madenit for me
I put that in browser and it wasn't made for me
It was made in August 23' idk
The songs were niche
Your FB doesn't have anything..not enough to give away who you really are
Your mom dad have a good social presence
By looking at their profiles nobody can really know what kind of person saaraansh nagi is ..
It's easy i know with the amount of reputation you build behind your back and the hardships you claim you went through
You frequent clubs too

On the second date we had sex ..too early
Gave away your lust you had for me
No love tho I know that I acted along
Could not even use a condom for my safety
After all of this was done
Then comes the double date
Your male bsf and his girlfriend
You don't leave hickeys on people on the second date tho it's noticable..note this.
They can get in trouble
Piyush at first seemed okayish
But the behaviour told me a lot about you and the people you surrounded yourself with
Not saying anything bad ..
Felt uneasy when he mentioned that your ex is Bengali too lol...you don't talk about exes in front of the current girlfriend

Also the decision of making me meeting your friends and some acquaintance
Doens't really prove your honesty to be honest
Do better
Because I saw hinge on your phone
Even if you downloaded itnfor piyush
It means piyush cheated
And what can I expect from someone whose friends cheats just because his girlfriend didn't allow him to make out .....note this too
Don't expose your friends..

Now
You posted a shit ton of highlights on your story
Posted a pic and left or not
I commented a second later
And one hour later I see 15 comments and each replied by you
And your special one
"My pretty boy"
"😍😍"
"😙😙"
Ask your friend to mend her ways if she wants a good girlfriend for her own male bestfriend especially if she knows he has a girlfriend
Lol I don't know dudiya why the Fuck would i trust her anyways... never trust Bengalis tho .. note this too ..me including

My comment had zero like and interaction
What you say in response
I was busy .i didn't open Instagram
I checked in hotel and left
I'm in janpath
Cant pick up a single call ..?
Like...nah you do pick up calls
You manipulate by interacting with your victims rather than ghosting then and ignoring them
Makes the game more fun
And then comes the love bombing
"Have you seen the way I look at you and stuff"
Nah you don't do this
You take it slow ..you don't have sex with your victims in a month
You wait.
Then a day later
You try to mend your ways
You had a golden opportunity to Gaslight me
But no you had to paint a good picture
Don't do this ..gives away your intentions

Even then all you said to me was
"Do you know my my my my my .. favourite shit this that this that"
You ask your victims about their day and involve them in along with you
Your disinterest in my life was another hint
Learn to invest

Then came the story arguments
It was all you sadly
Dw you don't have to accept it
Your subconscious will.
Nobody in their right mind posts a story of two characters kissing and tags their male bestfriend
I asked 20 people and all said this was wrong.
I know but I needed validation
Cant paint a bad picture for myself by overreacting
And when I showed anger
Your first defense was to protect dudiya
Nah you always put your victims first because you'll need them later
Dudiya isn't running from you
But you loose your victims
Also if you want a genuine relationship in future with someone
Don't defend your female counterparts.ever.
The first woman in your life is your mom and then your significant other
I didn't even ask you to abandon dudiya
You projected your insecurity by saying I won't abandon her and blah blah blah
You don't do this
You always put your woman first

Also tell her to improve her ways of showing care and love idk the rest
All i know is you haven't been bestfriends for long
I consider bestfriends who have been together for 5+ yrs

Then came the avoidant period where you
You actually never talked to me
Texted me first
Or didn't even pay or buy me a single flower
I acted along
I like to see the degree in which stuff grows
It's interesting
Ofc i would fight

Then I realised
Oh "he's creating situations for me to willingly fight"
You created scenes on which I acted on
Painting me as the villain when in reality I was the one suffering
The fourth argument was orchestrated
I wanted to play along
I am also messed up in the head
Seeing you mad and sad turned me on
When you finally took of the mask
It was over
I beggednand begged to have you back and destroy your ego one.last.time
It would have been amazing to see you loose your mind once more
I failed horrendously
I was indeed dancing

I have a narcissistic disorder,bpd, and provider complex where I buy or give people stuff to maintain their worth in my life
That explains the two three things I have given you ..it was not love it was my bricked up ego


Also also
You remember you cried and shaked on our first date
That was not a good acting
I can actually teach you that
You saw a glimpse of that one day
Power Bank jab lene ayi thi mai


Pehle ke do breakup texts meri taraf se Jaa chuke the
It was obviously me testing your patience
And guess what
All your tactics made sense in the way you reacted to those breakup texts I sent
You should try to make your victims stay

Also play chess, brain power mai help karta hai cause
You remember you told me about your body count
It was four five idk
But ek din jab tum apni story bata rahe the
You said you had two girlfriends lol
You like hookups eh?
Do baar sex ke time pe you said you said you were a virgin lmaooo
Brain power badhao
Good manipulation requires a lot of planning and structure
Read books by Robert Greene..he explains all your lousy tactics in a different way
I think it was god's will because I promise you if you came back to me I would have ruined things even more ..I like that ,it feels pleasurerable
You have a lot of potential..use it wisely

You also asked me how i give good heads
Thanks to all the unstable women I have dated before
Men aren't that interesting anyways,but you were
I wouldn't say I didn't fall in love
Because when you were angry I felt myself more in love with your brain than you
Idk will you call this love ?

Also you don't go to your girlfriend and say you masturbated to her ...gives away yet another tactic ..so fucking obvious saaraansh
Asking my kinks on the second day of texting? Heloo?
I love yous and heart racers in the first week
Virgos aren't that easy to fool
Because after all using me comes at a cost and that's your mental peace
And I can't rest in peace until I know I have had consumed every single one of your braincells
And you can't tell nobody what really happened without fabricating and making me look like a bad person hahahahaha
Ived had 20 people behind my back trying to pull me out of this goddamn relationship but I just couldn't I had to see how it ended
Thanks for teaching me everything
And you know what's surprising
You aren't doing this
Your subconscious is making you do this
I would consider getting therapy

I will too because I tried to prove myself I loved you ..none of memories would come up
It was only an image of us fucking and fucking and me moaning and being rough asf

I wanted more and more than this