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missing you, bat hindi nalang ako? why are you giving mix signals?. I miss our bond. i wish we can be still friends katulad nung dati nung di pa kita crush that's why I hate liking someone i hate it because our friendship end bucause of me lagi nalang it always my fault for liking someone ambigat sa feeling ayw ko ng umasa pero naasa padin ako I miss you kier i miss you so much I am fucking hating myself? why im finding you when im already have my ate, kuya,eros,my friends, family??? pano kaba naging special sakin ha bakittttt ayw ko na kier pero ur the only person na lagi kong hinahanap bat ba dahil ikaw ung naging safe place ko nung kailangan ko sila eros nung walang natulog sakin bat antanga tanga ko bat ganon mahal kita gusto kita bat ganon anhirap alsin ung feelings ko sayo I been liking you for 5months but you don't have a care for me. minsan iniisip ko i am not pretty enough? i am not smart enough? but di mo ko gusto? may kulang ba sakin? bat ganonnn bat ganto kahirap and you know ayw ko maging attention seeker ayw ko na please lang i want to give up liking u but i cant stop my feelings i wish you can love me back just for once? why? bat ganon andaming lalaki sa mundo pero wala akong mahanap na matino? bat ganon bat taas ng standard ko?bat ako nag hahanap ng bf di ba sabi ko nung una focus on your studies be an honor pakita mo kung sino ka pero marish nasan na yun anong nanyare sayo i wish i can keep my word i wish i was strong enough i was my fathers her i wish my lolo is still alive why i am facing this shit own my own why is this happening mali bako? what did i do bat ganto ang mundo sakin andaming may ayaw sakin sobrang panget ko ba anhirap dito bat gnon haa ayw ko na please anhirap maging ako sobrang hirap im just a kid remember im just a kid who want to be free i just want to have a freedom? ayw ko na ng gantong buhay. Im fucking hating myself again tangina ayw ko na ayw na ayw ko na pano ba maging okay how to find someone who can understand me who loves me ung di ako iiwan haa bat ganon simple lang namn hinihiling ko eh. i really really want to die!!!