Notes

idk if its cause i barely got to text u today or somethin else. but idk i jus feel like alone. even with u. cause idk uve heard everything about how i am struggling and shit and idk i havent heard anythin from u like in terms of us or on how ur doin other than that "everything feels normal" scares me a lot when u say that cause i remember a while ago when we talked about this moment i told u that after a while itd feel regular for u to be gone and u freaked out and idk now u feel like this is normal and idk ig im freakin out. idk i dont feel missed ig. im lonely. and ik u cant do anythin bout not being able to text me in class cause teachers. but yea ig i need attention or somthin until i start feelin better. idk ig this is jus me getting my thoughts out cause keepin em in jus breaks me down even more. idk my other half is gone u kno and i wanna at least feel like its there. im very weak without u. i miss u. alot.