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ok.. so i am so confused nd upst nd sad and dont even know whts goig on in my life righht now. i just got off the phone with my dad saying i dont wnat to go over there bc cira said that i called ki fat ugly men and rude with most of tht ws no true so kia said i personal atked her and i belive that i did say she was mean and rude cuz she is but i did not call her ft and or mean so kia sid that we will hve tlk leter and i dont want to go over and have talk cuz im scred f her nd my dad said that he understnds and said he wanted to talk to my mom and it hs othing to do with wht we just tlked about my mom got of the phoe not looking so happy nd i sk wht did u tl about tht i am loud to know bc i got confused when i told him nd he said he ws proud of me and wnted to alk bout a ''completly diffret thing'' so my mom kind of stalled and talk about nothe ting then i said gain what did u talk bout that im llowed to hear and she said what if u hd to live there for aothier week i said i dont think i can hndle that then i ask why bc she still was kind of frowning so then i said wht is happing and she stalled a little longer and kind of wondered off into her own world nd i got her to finnaly nswer me nand she said ur dad is leving in a couple of days and before hat she said dont tell nyone i was not even supost to tll u and ll i thought of was i keep enough secrets from kia reagan my mom and erik cira and soleil that i dont think this will be hard then she said that and i kind of froze there thinking and crying and mad upset sad confused and we tlked little bout how it will happen and how uncomfertble i was with this huge secret nd i still dnt want to go over there but i need to get some of my belongings so yeah