Notes

So, I have decided that I was going to start writing about my life. Well here we go. I realize that maybe its not such a good idea to be putting this on a computer XD. I would be better off putting it in a notebook but you know I don't use my brain very often. okay, to start things off I was born on December 10, 2000 by my mom , Jennifer wands, and my dad, craig blakely. on this day my mom had a scheduled C-section so that I would be born on my fathers birthday. my parents gave me the name kayla sue blakely. sue after my grandmother whos middle name was also sue. my grandparents were penny newquist and steve newquist who are my mothers parents. then there was jacqualine rupp and tim rupp who are my fathers parents. life was easy there for a couple months and then BAM!!!! my dad decided it was time to just up and leave. as the years went on I live with my mom and things went pretty well. I got to see my dad every other weekend due to court orders. we moved out of my mimis farm house and into a half a double in sunbury where we lived next to my moms best friend steff and her husband jeff and two kids brock and Bryce. brock was a few years older then me while Bryce was only a couple months older. we all got a long and did many things together. soon my mom met her boyfriend, Jordan. things got serious and we ended up moving in with him. at the age of 3 my mom Jordan and I went to new York together to see the fire works for the forth of july. not only did we do that we also went to the bronks zoo. which was so much fun. I don't remember too much from new York but I do know that I did have a great time. as the years went on blah blah blah nothing interesting happened. around the age of about 6 I was finally able too start school. while I was in pre school I met this boy named ricky. we become great friends and our parents said we were dating XD. he took me on a date to chucky cheese once which was really fun. my dad ended up marrying a women by the name of Jamie. I was pretty young when this happened so I don't remember too much. she had two boys, shawn and cody, who became my step brothers. but they didn't last too long and eventually got divorced. back to when I was younger we had these two cats, sable and axle, neither of them had tails and they liked to get baths with me. but then they got out of the house one day and never came back :(((( soon we ended up getting two new cats. our first ones name was spooky. she is all gray and very beautiful. she really isn't the nicest though. then one day my mom took me to the pet store and let me pick out a kitten. being the young self I was I ended up naming him whiskers XD. he shortly became my best friend and hasn't left my side since. he is the sweetest cat I have ever met and he is very good looking too ;) once my mom and Jordan split up we moved into a house in Selinsgrove. I went to kindergarten and all that normal human stuff. while living there I had a babysitter names Kelly who lived right next door and a best friend names abby who also lived next door. we spent a litte time together but she eventually moved which I grew to understand. shortly after we moved back into my mimis house. while living there I went to school at priestly elementary till second grade. I got to have my bus stop literally right in front of my house which was really nice. I had fun times there but it was nothing special. later we ended up moving back to Selinsgrove where I met my new best friend. we lived right down the street from each other and our moms worked together and were also good friends. her name was Corinne. she had a little brother names derek and shortly I saw myself at her house all the time. she was a bad influence on me XD. as of today shes actually a preppy little bitch. anyywayyyyy...... while I lived in Selinsgrove I had this really mean teacher in second grade who accused me of cheating on a test. I have hated her since. luckily my mom believed me over her. in 3rd grade I met the best teacher ever alive. her name was miss Jackson and we actually became great friends. she actually made me feel like I had someone to always go to. I'm not sure where he is now but I remember having this really good friend by the name of uche. weird right? but he was awesome. while in third grade ricky broke up with me which you know who cares I was in third grade. soon I got this boyfriend by the name of Dakota. he was so sweet. it had to end though because I ended up moving the next year. I actually just found him on facebook a couple months ago and he is SOOO hot now. back on topic. we soon moved to a house In sunbury. I then started going to beck elementary. I really hated it there. I had and awesome teacher for 4th grade. not only that but at the end of my 4th grade year I found out my mom was having a baby boy. so as the months went on and on and I waited I hit 5th grade where I had the worst teacher in the world!!! he was so rude and treated us like we were poor servants. thank god that year went fast. soon my mom had her baby on 11/11/11 and we named him, jayden micheal wands. I picked the middle name XD. did I mention he was half black. In 5th grade I had an accident. I was riding my bike and hit a car. when I fell I cut my leg on glass and had to get staples but don't worry I was okay. theres just this ugly scar there now. 5th grade was most definitely the worst year of my life. i was bullied a lot about my weight but i never told anyone. there was always this girl that i really hated. she never did anything to me i just hated her. but one day i was getting bullied to a point where i broke down and cried in class. she was the only one who stuck up for me and walked me out of the room and down to the principles office. to this day she has been my best friend for 5 years. 6th grade went by really fast and was over quickly. then came 7th. i was beyond terrified because instead of going to middle school i went right into highschool. i spent most of my days with skye, my best friend. we become inseparable. during that year i met this boy. i really liked him and he liked me too. so we dated. not for too long because he moved due to divorce. we still kept in touch and were good friends. he had a twin sister by the name of colleen who stayed at shik. she was deaf which i didn't talk to her much. then one day i met this girl. she was so beautiful and somehow i fell for her. and on that day i realized that i was bisexual. i had a major crush on her for two years and still kinda do. i become really addicted to 5 seconds of summer that year. it got really crazy and to this day my room is covered in posters of them and i have tons of shirts. also that year i started shopping at hot topic. buying band t shirts and stuff all the time. my collection is quite big now XD. my 8th grade year was pretty normal not much happened. then along came summer. i was in marching band and i fell for this girl names ashlee. she was so amazing. she was straight and had a boyfriend so i figured i had no chance. she became one of my best friends. she stayed over at my house every Friday after the football games. one day at practice i accidentally kissed her on the lips instead of the cheek. so that night i text her and apologized but she didn't care and i ended up expressing my feelings for her. things moved forward and the next time she stayed over she kissed me. after that things got really awesome. she was practically my girlfriend. we made out all the time and also did some other things we wont talk about. she was cheating on her boyfriend with me. then along came school. she was only in school for a couple months until her and her boyfriend started cyber. she still came over a lot. then one day things just stopped. we stopped hanging out and everything. then... i found out she was pregnant. i lost it and all things went to hell. i felt like i had lost everything because she was my everything. so i worked my way back to danny. which was the boy i dated in 7th grade. we dated for a couple days and then i said this isn't right and i dumped him and went straight to ashlees house. that was the day that i had realized i wasnt bi. i was gay. things with ashlee soon just disappeared. then one day i started hanging out with this one girl a lot in school. she was a year older then me and we got along very well. then danny moved back. he tried getting with me and i told him it just wasn't right. alexis and i ended up dating for a month and a half. my family and my friends kept telling me they noticed how happy i was. that was the best month and a half of my life. while hanging out with alexis i grew a great friendship with my friend erin. which we are still close to this day. she ended up telling me she was bi and that she had a girlfriend whom she started dating two days before alexis and i did. we had our good times but soon alexis just gave up. she claimed she didn't love me anymore but really she just cheated on my with a guy from England. i felt betrayed and ended up going to a dark place. i destroyed things and became a terrible person. erin and her girlfriend lasted 2 months. once they broke off Madison, erins girlfriend and i, became friends. I'm not sure if its because of the situations we were in or what but we understood eachother and ended up dating. things were well but all she wanted was sex which i didn't like so i left. danny i talked a lot. i told him i didn't want to date but we could hang out. so one day i went to his house. that day he kissed me. changed my whole perspective on everything. so then danny and i ended up dating for a month. we made it through finals and i did really well on all but my science which i expected. i got really tired of being with him because once again i didn't feel comfortable with him. the only people that knew about us was erin and my mom because i was hiding it from skye considering she didn't like him and thought i was gay. danny is a very amazing and sweet person. he is the only one that is ever there for me but i just couldn't do it anymore. everytime i tried to leave i ended up staying because all he ever did was guilt trip me. which i cant handle. i got back into my depressed state because i wasn't happy and I'm the type who does things to make others happy. man i almost forgot. during 8th grade the best thing happened. I GOT TO GO TO A 5SOS CONCERT AND IT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!! back to the topic XD i eventually got so sick of things i ran to my mom. she told me to do what i thought was best for me so i had to break up with him and i did. well I'm just now remembering things that i forgot to add into my story XD. in my second year of band i had an incident and ended up falling and spraining my knee. no one knew what was wrong but they knew that my knee had given out. i wasn't aloud to perform and missed the competition i wanted to perform the most. i cried a lot that night but had ash to be there by my side. a couple months later it happened again and we went to the doctors for more x rays. again nothing was wrong. so they sent me to physical therapy and i now have to wear a brace 24/7 so my knee doesn't buckle. not only in my seconds year did that happen but i also went through a period of sickness where i was scared that i was dying. the doctors thought i had mono but they tested me and it was negative. if it wasn't that they thought it was strep. they tested for that but it wasn't that either. i missed a week of band and all i did was sleep. i never ate or really even moved. after about a week and a half it passed. worst experience ever. so now back to danny. he stuck around after the break up and never left my side which felt nice. we fought a lot but i knew i always had someone there. skye pretty much just drifted away. school ended and my summer began. i went to another 5sos concert this summer with my friend faith and had and awesome time. we went to applebees afterwards and ate way too much food. i hang out a lot with faith and shes really my only friend. all of my friends have drifted away except for danny but i try not to let him in too much because i feel better alone. as of now I'm just a boring old teenager who never sees her father because he has a wife and kids and cares nothing about me. I'm a band obsessed kid who is also in marching band which takes up my life and gives me time to do nothing. i had a job at a Chinese restaurant but i quit because they barely ever worked me. my brother will soon be 5 and he is the best thing in my life right now. hes my everything. my best friend is literally my cat whiskers. hes always by my side and i love him beyond everything. I'm obsessed with cats and shoes. i wear black most of the time and watch pretty little liars during the time I'm not at marching band. i babysit a lot because my mom has two jobs and is always working. which is okay with me because then we have extra money to do things together like go to the beach like we did this year and when we went to sesame place last year and the Baltimore aquarium. that was a lot of fun and i love spending time with my mom. coming out to my mom happened in a way i didn't want it to. she took my phone and found out on her own. i really wanted to tell her myself but i guess it didn't happen that way. she was okay with it though. and as coming out to my family. they really just found out themselves. life is pretty okay and here is where ill keep you up to date and on track.
i love you
kayla