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(This letter will switch from reason to reason of my dropping out)
When I have feelings that words cannot explain, I write.
I wrote letters to my family, asking for something, apologizing for one thing.
Those letters did nothing, yet I kept writing those things.
BFG was a show that I felt anxious about.
I would act out, feeling like I would embarrass myself in front of people I knew nothing about.
I dropped out. Anxiety got the better of me, I began feeling like a busy bee, constantly working and never freed.
I never thought I ever needed a break. I loved performing, and still do.
I felt horrible for dropping out, out of the blue, when I could've sucked it up and not have let how tired I was, show through.
We got a fairly long break in between shows, Robin Hood kept me on my toes. I constantly waited for it to end, I loved that cast, and we are all friends. But I was tired, and wanted to go.
This sounds ridiculous, yes I know. I got about two months to rest, to prepare for the next show.
But, I also left for my family.
My sister went to Western for three weeks on her own.
I missed her more than I would've ever missed my phone.
I was tired of not bugging her. I wanted to see her more.
My father has work, we own one car.
It almost died on us, it's old. BGOnStage is not too far, if you're riding in a car.
During my break, we got two flat tires in one night. Our spirits fell, we stopped feeling bright.
Every time I blinked, a new conflict arose. This always happens to me, Kaitlyn Rose.
I felt anxious, and that's never gone away. All I know how to do, is pray.
Praying for better days, that the stress would be wiped away from the ones who give me praise.
I dropped out. My parents needed me to, more than I ever did. It was my decision, as I am a kid. My parents had to drop doing what they loved for me, For me to be successful. Sometimes they ran during my rehearsals but didn't make it as far as they'd like.
I wanted to give back, I didn't tell them that. They constantly changed their plans around for me to be onstage and rise off the ground. So I am only giving back to them, who I love.
Ashlee complains about never doing anything, because I am always performing or singing.
They needed breaks as much as I did.
I will return as soon as I see another show that interests me.
I hope to never make the directors go through this again. I hope I didn't hurt them, when we told them I would stop for personal reasons.
Those reasons have been told, but I will come back before anyone gets too old.
The next time I audition, I WILL go through with my position.
I love BGOS, and everyone there.
I'll be back soon, I promise.
With love, Kaitlyn Bryan