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The thing that pisses me off the most is that you literally told me you hate me, because of something I never did. I fucking love you and would never stop. Im not just gonna say"bye". I cant. You hold my secrets and I hold yours. Didnt you propose to me like 2-3 days ago? Weren't you the one I would wake up wanting to talk to? Izzy, I fucking love you. Ok? I hurt you once and I would never hurt you again. You should know that. After all we've been thru we stuck to each other. You can leave me now, but know that I didnt hurt anything. Im actually innocent. If you want me to get what my mom has, I dont Mind anymore. Ill go ahead and trade spots with her. I would always defend you. Help you. And even if you don't want me to anymore. I will. After you read this ur probably gonna say "ok" or "ok Carmen". Doesnt matter. I just hate losing what I want the most. Go ahead call me your sister. Your sister wasn't the one who protected you from matthew,and everyone else. That was me. But whatever, if its fine with you then let it be. If it makes you happy, im not coming back next year. So now you can be alone and no one will bother you. Ok? I fucking love you and I dont care if you don't back but just know that I do. If it makes you happy, ill never talk to you again, if I come back, I will never bother you, never talk, never look or anything else. That's just to make you happy. If you want, ill kill myself, as long as your happy. Your still my everything, my bsf, and mt heart. I don't have to be yours. I will always be there for you, even if you don't want me to. I will always trust you and love you and that's never gonna change. You still have all my secrets and I still trust you with them. They don't matter anymore. I just want you to be safe. I didnt tell Stephanie and I have things I can use against her even if she did tell someone. Just be happy. And if me leaving makes you happy, then ill do that. If you want. Ok? Ily and im sorry you thought it was me