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Dear Notes Online Diary, I really want to be like other 11-year-old girls that are mature and dependable or even like my best friend, Riza Barbosa, she listens to her mom all the time without being told what to do or without being reminded or not even hesitating to do something her mom tells her to do and she's 7 years old...7!!!!
I want to be a mature, dependable, loving, can-do, and obedient and respectful girl...all the traits that a 11-year-old girl has. My cousin that's in 7th grade listens to her grandparents, her stepmom, and even her dad and knows what to do. My cousin in high school can change diapers and listen to his mom and dad and does not hesitate when told to do something. I'm just jealous that when people that I know that's younger, older, or even close to my age listens to their moms or dads...but I'm forgetful, annoying, in the middle, and even stubborn at times; I have seizures a little bit sometimes and I'm in this stage where I think that I am really fat! I just want to be perfect and not have those flaws or whatever it's called...and be the girl that will be well-rounded and listen to everyone in her family and have all the traits of an 11-year-old girl.
But, however, I do dream something that I want to be.
I want to be:
-popular
-generous and nice and sweet
-gorgeous and beautiful
-unique and being myself and being my own leader
-well-rounded
-skinny and fit and flexible
-talented with a good voice and also an athletic person
-have the greatest and most popular tennis shoes, high tops, sandals, high heels, and slippers
-flawless and have the greatest clothes like blouses, jean shorts, leggings, shirts, tank-tops, and the most popular clothes ever!!!
-be good at musically
-and most important of all, be a believer in Christ and help other non-Christians around the world to find the Holy Spirit inside them and show them that the Bible is real and that Jesus and God is real!
-I have other great passions like basketball, gymnastics, baking, and hip-hop dancing...I wanna do all of those totally wicked awesome stuff one day when Daddy gets the huge jackpot(money in other words or rewards perhaps)!
But, however, there's a con or negative side to all these great achievements, dreams, and traits...Our family's not rich and V.I.P. and my dad's not deployed like he used to a long time ago where we get to go everywhere around the whole wide world and I can't argue with that...NEVER in my life!!! If my family was rich, I'd be happy that we have money for me and my big whole family but sad because we are so focused on money we don't get to spend time together as one big happy family and have a good, jolly ole time and give money to the homeless families around the world because that's what happiness is all about...to spread joy around the world for other families we know or don't know rarely.
But, no matter if you're rich or poor, first-class or third-class, flexible or not, fat or skinny, good at musically or not, non-Christian or a Christian, have everything popular of brands or not, generous and nice and sweet or not, gorgeous and beautiful or ugly, fit or not, unique and being yourself and being your own leader or being a copycat, have the most popular brand of shoes or not, talented with a good voice or not, athletic or not, well-rounded or not, you are still a great person and will never give up on your dreams and never ever stop persevering...make a choice right now or forever hold your peace!!!
-Sincerely,
Tia-Marie Ancheta
P.S. You will get there no matter what!!!