Notes

As many of you probably saw in the news...On the night of June 10th.. Christina Grimmie was performing in a concert over in Orlando, Florida. Around the time of the Meet & Greet, a man came up to her and shot her, her brother Marcus Grimmie Rushed over and tackled the shooter to the ground. Christina was rushed to the hospital and was pronounced dead later that night.

This..Has really taken a toll on me, Christina was an inspiration to me, she was that voice that kept me going, she Was one of the nicest people I ever has gotten to talk to. Even if I ever got to meet her in real life...And I wish I would have saved up all the money just to see her. Cause Even though I never met her she impacted my life so much.

When I suffered with my Anxiety and all of my other issues it was her covers I would rely on to keep me safe and calmed. I remember many nights going to bed Listening to her cover of Safe & Sound by Taylor Swift and Civil War, she had that kind of voice that gave you this sense of calmness.. Her voice would battle my insomnia and win the battles for me.

At one point I realized Christina had a live stream channel in Twitch.Tv which is a website dedicated to gaming streams.. I waited till one of the days she went Live and there I was, being part of the team of people that support her, Team Grimmie, and I had found this second home of mine, I got to meet incredible individuals by talking with them While Christina was playing games with her friends. At one point I decided to make Christina the First ever person I ever truly supported and I subscribed, if you do not know, in twitch you have to pay around 5 dollars a month to be subscribed to an individual and they get a revenue of that. I will forever remember that and will never regret it, I once got to play with her in League of Legends which is my favourite game.. it was one of those days I will never forget. One day she was off-line yet invited me to play with her, I with no doubt accepted, and said yes, at one point she mentioned of skyping with one of the individuals that was in the call, Billy Fox, and I messaged her saying, do you mind if I join the call too? Too my surprise she said sure and before I know it I was in a Skype Call with my all time Idol.

We played for hours...We were a team, I got to meet even more incredible people and people I absolutely love to death now, in 2 days we where in Skype calls that summed to a total of 17 hours of talking and playing. Those are memories I will forever cherish. Everytime she called me a sweet person it made me smile so much and it warmed my heart..She was so special. My mind hasn't gotten around the fact that she has died. Guess that is why I am writing this.

Thinking back... I was very fortunate to be able to do that, and I got to play with many of them later on! It was amazing honestly. Getting to know all these people is still insane just to think about it. Best part of it, they see me as a friend..I never thought I would go from a simple fan to a friend. As time went on I met Marcus.. Every single time I ever talked with Marcus I could tell by the way he was typing that he actually cared for me..I couldn't believe it honestly. These people didn't know me in real life yet gave me so much trust as I gave them.

For Issues in my life I normally have problems of telling people Who I really am, yet when it comes to them I gave it my all cause I instantly trusted them. I will forever Cherish the moments I have made with them and all that are yet to come. I cannot wait till the day I get to meet them in person. There my second family. People I cannot live without them, you know who you are, I will prob forward this to you as well so if your reading this.. Hi ^_^

Lastly, I just wanna say thank you, not only to all of them and to my friends that have supported me through the Coping..But for Tuan Dinh, or TC, when the news of what had happened to Christina happened. I immediately went to my skype and messaged him asking what was going on. TC did his best, and he kept me calm in an otherwise moment of pain. He did his best for nothing to happen to me, the last thing he wanted was something bad to happen to me. I will forever appreciate that TC, I am glad I have people like you in my life.

So yeah, I just had to say this as I couldn't contain certain stuff. It is just really hard to keep emotions in sometimes, especially when they are centred on someone so important in your life. This has been a wake up call for me, we are not promised tomorrow.. I will do my best to live life to the fullest in my eyes and do what I love and never regret a minute of it.. I will forever miss you Christina, you won't be forgotten, and your name is gonna live forever.